Taper shnayper shit-pack grunt monster!

I've just, well almost 2 weeks ago, gone from 8-6mg. This Friday coming, 6-4mg.

This drop gone was quite SHITEY for 4 or 5 days. Hmmm.... Waking up at 4am. Sore, sore legs. Mr whimper McGrumpysnipe. WAAAAAH! Then it settles down and I have to wait a week and go through it all AGAIN!?

SURELY SURELY SURELY??????

It's better just to bite the fokkin bullet, jumpetty-jump and suffer once and for all...like I'm going to have to do anyway??

Seeing the prescriber Doc on Thursday. I will take their advice, of course, but I am going to request soonest possible date for jumpoffery.

Her initial plans were drops every 2 weeks from the 12mg I was on: 12,10,8,6,4,2,1,0.6,0.4,0.2...?
That would take another 10 weeks from now. I seriously believe that would kill me.

I suggest a week each at 4, 2, and 1 then offski. 3 weeks from now.

Am I being idiotic??

I don't even know if I'm thinking straight now?

Hi fuser,
Yeah, I also went through some bouts of depression around the dose you are at...it sucks, but it did help me to post about it and get feedback that it was a "normal' part of the process, and would not last.

I became really freaked out one weekend that I was going to slide into a long term depression (been there before and just cannot go back- I don't think I would survive it, for real). Anyway, the depressive thoughts intensified when I was alone in a darkened room (big surprise there huh?) so for me it helped to get 'up and out' into the light, sunshine, around other people, and "out' of my own head. It can be difficult to force yourself to do this as at least for me, "wallowing" in those feelings alone can seem like the easier thing to do.

Of course life is not going to be all sunshine and roses- bad feelings inspire us to make healthy changes to "fix' the root of the problems and grow (unless we hide from them by say, taking drugs). I found though while going through the tapering process I just had to "shelf" those feelings for awhile until I was stronger and healthier- tapering itself takes so much energy and fortitude I found I had little left to deal with some of the "shit" I was carrying around in my head.

Be kind and gentle with yourself. Be forgiving of yourself! Take good care of yourself as if you were nursing a sick child, which is what we all are anyway on this road to recovery- IMO we are all God's children, and in our sickness need nurturing and love, like all sick children need to help them get well again.

Take care and I hope you have a good day. My advice for mood besides getting out of your head and trying to focus on others, is listen to uplifting music and exercise. Both do wonders!
BF

BF...I kid you not..you have this ability to describe things in words that are not that easy to describe! ..and you do it good.. You should think about writting a book about your taper and pre/post expiriences

Wow, what a nice compliment fuser, thank you.
How are you feeling??

My worst part was dropping too much too quickly, and that was fixed almost immediately. Don't go down lower than a 25% reduction.

rule

....but cannot imagine prolonging it another 2 months...it is getting exausting mentally as well