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PostPosted: Thu Jun 28, 2012 12:37 pm 
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Hi all,

I am new here. Actually I've been lurking on this forum for awhile, but just joined today. I am starting suboxone treatment Monday morning and I am scared. I feel so guilty and ashamed that things have gotten to this point. I've been using and abusing hydrocone and norco for about 5 years. It started off by me taking a couple to get "high" with my friends. Then I went to the dr and told him I had severe cramps due to my period and got my own script for 5s, I'd get like 20 pills to last a couple months. Then I got a kidney stone and I was actually happy about it, as sad and as wrong as that may sound, but I got more pills. I would buy them from my friends, or take them from my parents... my mom and dad both at one point got prescriptions for pain pills and they wouldn't take them, but they'd give them to me because I'd tell them my kidney stones were back, or I had cramps, whatever. It wasn't a large amount then.

I was in a car accident in May of 09. My dr gave me a prescription right away for 240 10mg norcos! They used to last longer, now they last me about 10 days if I'm lucky and then I have to buy more. I always have someone to buy from, sometimes it's hard, but I usually always manage to find them. My husband will find them for me too because he doesn't want me to be sick. He doesn't want me to not be able to function. I am a stay at home mom, he works long hours. I know he doesn't want to enable me, but because he loves me, he doesn't want me to be sick. Recently we got 2 months behind on our mortgage and I feel like I've hit rock bottom. That's my low anyway, not having enough money to pay bills on time. I am a mother of a 14 month old beautiful little girl and I want to do this for myself, and for her. I want to get off these pills and off this viscious cycle. I made an appt. with a suboxone dr and I have to be there at 9 am, Monday morning. I am so afraid. I was instructed to not take any pills after Friday night, I have to go 48 hrs without and be in withdrawls of course, but I am a mess. I can't hardly eat or sleep, all I do is cry because I'm so nervous and afraid of the "what ifs." Is this a normal reaction to starting sub treatment? I feel like I'm already mourning the loss of one of my best friends... my pills.

I depend on them for everything I do. I make plans to do fun things with my daughter and my family around my refill date so that I know I have plenty of pills to have fun and feel "normal." What if I don't ever feel normal again? What if the subs don't work for me, I know that once my dr sees I went to a sub dr and started them, I'll never be prescribed norcos or any other pain meds again, and that scares me.

Those of you that have gone through this, we're you relieved once you started the subs? I'm sorry, I know I am rambling, but my mind is a mess. Also, I do have legitament back pain, will these subs take care of the pain or do they just take care of the withdrawls from stopping the pain meds? I don't want to be in pain either!

Thank you to everyone who took the time to read this and can answer some of my questions or give me some support. It's so scary. I hate that things have gotten to this point. Thank you


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Welcome to the forum! It's good that you found us before your induction appointment because talking to people here who have been through what you are about to go through, will most definitely calm your fears! It is absolutely normal to be scared and to even be afraid that you will miss being high from your Norcos.

You don't need to wait a full 48 hours before inducting on subs. Hydrocodone has a relatively short half life, so 24 hours should be enough time. My doctor told me I only had to wait 12 hours, but I waited about 18 hours since my last pill, just to be safe. But to be sure, you can rely on the COWS scale (Clinical Opiate Withdrawal Scale). Here is a link to it. I was at about a 19 on this scale:

http://www.naabt.org/documents/cows_ind ... _sheet.pdf

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I feel like I'm already mourning the loss of one of my best friends... my pills.


I felt the same way. I wondered if Suboxone would work for me and if I would be able to stay away from Norco. The answer is YES and YES! From the very first day on Suboxone, with just an 8mg dose, I haven't craved my Norcos at all...and I was taking them every day all day long for 2 years. It is amazing how subs work that way! I don't know how, but I don't even miss being high, because I feel satisfied being on subs. And I didn't even need the full 8mg dose. My doctor prescribed me 24mg/day, but I found within the very first week that I am ok to take just half a strip (4mg), which is what I am still on as my maintenance dose. This dose kept my withdrawals and cravings away completely.

I also depended on the pills for everything I did...made my plans around whether or not I would have enough pills that day. I was also worried that I would never be able to get pain pills again from my regular doctor. But I do not worry about that anymore because subs help me with my pain, and they do for many others as well. They might not take all of your pain away, as there are still days here and there that I take an Aleve or Ibuprofen, but they do keep most of my pain away, and I am finally able to lay still in bed at night, without tossing and turning as a result of my neck, shoulder and back pain that I have had for most of my life. They make me feel completely normal.

Please feel free to ask any more questions that you might have. I know I had a ton of questions in the days leading up to my induction appointment, and the answers that I received on this forum helped me so much!


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First off, let me welcome you to our forum. You will find tons of support here in your journey of Suboxone therapy. Most of us are still taking it, some on higher doses and others are down to just a little bit. We all differ in the way we recover from opiate addiction but we are all the same when it comes to cravings and behavior while practicing our addiction.

IMO, you are making the right choice to go onto Suboxone. Unless you know that it is possible to wean down and stop by yourself then it really is the best way to go.

Just like Taurus said you don't need to go so long w/o anything. If you are seeing the doctor at 9am Monday then you shouldn't take any Norco's from about noon Sunday. 3pm if you just can't handle it but you are cutting it way too close. 18 hours is the minimum time so you don't suffer from precipitated withdrawals. To be safe, go with noon.

When I read what everyone was saying about Suboxone I didn't believe it. How could it stop the intense cravings? No way it could stop the withdrawals. Well I was completely wrong as it did do both of those and I felt great for the first time in years. What I didn't know was that Suboxone is an opiate too, that's why it can stop the cravings. The first few days felt really weird but I leveled out by day three and the rest is history. They call it a partial agonist vs a full agonist like Hydrocodone. You will feel back to normal once your dose is established and you have a week or two behind you. No more missing mortgage payments or having to lie to get some more drugs. Life returns to normal. Like that stupid saying "it's the new normal." I hate that quote but it does ring true.

Don't worry, it will all work out. It did for all of us. And when you are ready to get off of it, read all the posts concerning that process.

Please post back after your induction on how you feel.

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welcome shadow! i feel kinda wierd about welcoming somebody when i am myself a newbie..but i totaly feel the need to chime in. your story is so familar to mine (and probably everyone else's) but you were very wise to come on here first. i had never even heard of suboxne when i admitted that i needed medical help to get off those damn pills.i had only heard of methadone so i googled an addiction specialist in my area thinking that i would be put on methadone (i have no experience with methadone so i wont comment on it) but when i got there 2 days later i was still a little high even though they had told me over and over that i needed to be in withdrawl when i started my treatment, i didnt have the fortitude to even go into withdrawls foreven a few hours, my mistake, because had i listened and been in withdrawl i wouldn't have gotten so sick the first day! so please learn from my mistake and do as your dr advises. what rule and Taurus posted rings so true! Suboxone for me, helped save my job of 18 years, my wife of 17 and my house..indeed my whole life. i am aware that suboxne is an opiate and when the time comes for me to come off it,it may be hard:but for me right here, right now, i am grateful i found this medication (or maybe it found me) Best of luck to you sHadow and you will be just fine..maybe a little amazed too.


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I just wanted to add that if you take your last pill the afternoon before, like around noon as rule suggested, you won't even be feeling that bad at all until night time maybe...and then you can take an over the counter sleeping pill to help you sleep through most of the beginning withdrawals, if you would like. I just thought that if you knew you had that option, you might not stress about the withdrawals as much.

I wasn't even in that bad of withdrawal when I got inducted. I took my last few Norcos the afternoon before, and didn't start feeling yucky until that night. I slept a little, and then I obviously felt like crap the next morning, right before my appt, but it wasn't really that bad...just like I had started to get a cold...a couple bouts of diarrhea, chills, backache, a little nausea...but just knowing that relief was on its way as soon as the doctor would administer the Suboxone to me, helped calm my nerves a little. It wasn't like I was in withdrawal from running out of pills, wondering when my dealer would be able to hook me up that day, if at all.

I felt completely fine within 20 minutes of putting the sub under my tongue, and you should too. I did feel a little woozy the first two days, but felt completely normal by the end of the third day. I could've gone to work the same day as my induction if I had to, but it was on a weekend, so I had a couple of days off.


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Thank you all so much. Your supportive words do mean a lot. Like I said, I've been lurking here for awhile, but it's a lot different when you tell your story (even if it sounds a lot like everyone else's story), and you get feedback directed to you personally.

From everything I read and after hearing your responses, I am pretty certain that I am not going to put myself through withdraws for a whole 48 hrs. I have enough norcos left to get me through tomorrow and Saturday so I think I'll take my last pill Saturday evening instead of Friday evening or Saturday morning. My mom and dad are going to take my daughter all day Sunday because my mom knows that I won't feel like caring for a 14 month old during that, so that's an ease on my mind. I think if I take my last pill late Saturday, I will be good to go come Monday morning. I definetly do not want to make myself sicker by not being in moderate withdrawls when I start the sub.

I am pretty sure that the sub dr. here administers and prescribes the sub strips instead of the pill form. Either way, it doesn't matter. I do know that he will give me my first dose in his office. A lady that works at my husbands workplace gave me some info. She was one of my "dope ladies" before she started her sub treatment and she reffered me to this doc. She says she was there for about an hour and a half, she filled out a little paperwork and then was dosed in his office. He came back in 20 minutes later to give her more and see how she was feeling, but she said she was already feeling much better just after the first 2 mg. He made her take 2 mg at a time until she reached 8 mg. I think I like that better than actually starting at a full 8 mg all at once because I've never taken that much.

Once a couple years ago I was completely out of norcs and hydros and couldn't find anything, so I bought 3 of the 8 mg pills to try and see if they'd work for me. I wanted to make them last for 2 weeks because my refill wasn't due for 2 weeks. I broke them up into eighths of a pill, so I was putting an eighth, 1 mg under my tongue in the morning and again in the evening. At the last, I was running out, so I'd just break an even smaller part off one and take that. It did last me, it wasn't a high dose, but it kept me comfortable. I'm glad I actually have tried the pill because I know that eventhough I wasn't taking much then, it kept me feeling ok. I remember my husband and I went canoing during that time and if it hadn't been for the subs I bought and what little I was taking, I would not have been able to go out on the river like that and actually not feel "dope sick." I'm really glad I did that then, just so I have a better understanding and I know that subs are amazing.

According to the girl that reffered me to the doc, if you are taking between 12-15 norcos or hydro 10s a day, he will prescribe 2 8 mg strips a day, so 60 for the month. I don't know if that's going to be too much, but I can always take a half and just take what I need.

I do have a prescription for ambien sleep aid. I plan to use that to my advantage Sunday so that once the withdrawls kick in, I can take the sleep aid and sleep through as much of it as I can. I don't think there's anything wrong with taking ambien, it doesn't have any opiate in it. I would like to sleep Sunday as much as I can. My husband will be here, he's gonna rent us some movies and just be there for me incase I need him. He's going to make sure I eat, things like that.

I've known about subs for a couple years so I've researched in on and off, trying to decide if thats what I'd like to do, but up until now, never made the appointment. I kept thinking I wasn't ready, I'll do it later.... all those things we tell ourselves until we hit our low and know its time. I am actually excited about my appt., but I'm just anxious about it. Anxious and scared.

Thank you all for your words and encouragement. Thanks for answering my questions! I will follow up with you all later about how I'm feeling and probably may need some encouragement on Sunday, depending on how I feel. I'll definitly jump on here Monday and let you all know how it goes! Hopefully, I'll be feeling so much better! Again, thank you, all of you!


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Wow you certainly sound like you have all your ducks in a row! On the Ambien subject, on my second Dr visit (which was 5 days after my first) i asked for a suggestion on a safe sleep aid, i was referring to an otc endorsement but was surprised when my Dr wrote me a script for Ambien CR with a couple of refills. So if its safe for me, i would assume that its safe for you too. I take the Ambien almost every other day whether i need it or not.iIprobably shouldn't but im still an addict.. I am on the film 8mg twice daily and i haven't relapased since my first Suboxone strip... honestly, i can say i haven't come close..one of my old "friends" who i used to give a good portion of my paycheck to, still calls every few days to test me..i keep telling her that i'm done with that stuff...maybe i should change my number! i can also relate to your feelings of anxiousness and fear over your appt. on Monday but truthfully you should try and feel the exact opposite because this is a very good decision you have made!..please keep posting!


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I really don't think you need to go a whole day and a half without taking your Norco. I know that if I would have taken my last Norco Saturday night, and didn't have an appt until Monday, I would've been miserable all day Sunday for no reason. 36 hours is a little excessive, and seems to be putting yourself through unnecessary agony.

But only you know how bad your withdrawals get, so it's your decision. I just know that I wouldn't have been able to last that long and would've caved and probably ended up taking one too close to my appt. The 18 hours I waited was more than enough time for me. But the COWS scale is the true indicator of what point you are at in your withdrawal.

Maybe you can try not to take anymore tonight or tomorrow and see how long it takes until you start having withdrawals, rating yourself on the COWS scale until you can't stand it anymore. That would give you a good idea of how long you should wait before your appt Monday.

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Thanks again everyone! I am going to use the ambien to help me sleep, hopefully a lot on Sunday. I think I may go ahead and take my last pill on Sunday morning, that's if I can make what I have left last. I kinda screwed up knowing that I have an appointment on Monday, and thinking that I was gonna have to withdrawl anyway, so I didn't leave myself much leway as far as pills. I certainly don't want to buy anymore, so I'm going to try really hard to go longer without taking a pill today and tomorrow so that I have one or two for Sunday morning. We'll see...

Everytime I get on and see your words of encouragement, I feel a little more at ease. Dicespin, thank you, I know it sounds like I have "all my ducks in a row," and I'm trying really hard to have everything in order before I start this new journey, and no matter how much I think I'm ready, I still have so much anxiety! I know it's gonna be ok, it has to be. I know that things are going to get better after Monday's appointment though. It's only 3 days away, but it feels like forever. I'm just glad that I could get an early Monday appointment, so that I have someone to watch my daughter during the worst of it Sunday. I'm excited though knowing that next time my husband gets paid, I don't have to budget for pills. I always hated that the most, knowing I had to make sure my pills were paid for before anything. I'd never let my daughter go hungry or without, so her needs came first and then my pills, then the rest of the bills, but I know that if I lost my house or utilities got shut off, I'd be taking away from her. I have to end this. I will let you all know how things are going Sunday, and I'll definetly update you all Monday afternoon!

I'm so glad this forum exists for people like myself. Hopefully one day I'll be here supporting other newbies and encouraging them, and speaking from experience. Right now it's all so scary, but I know the end is in sight! Thank you again, I'll keep you updated!


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I too am very glad I found this forum..before i did i had no one to talk about what i was experiencing. i should probably be going to some NA meetings but in real life i am a very private person...excuses i know..but true. this forum has given me a wealth of info and it seems like every question i have has been covered here at one time or another. hang in there shadow..these last 3 days are going to drag but buying more pills probably isnt the best idea..not preaching, just my opinion..come this time next week i know you're going to be much much closer to your old self. and all that money we used to spend will go to better uses! I messed up about 2 years ago and opened a "secret" credit card my spouse didn't know about and quickly maxed it out with cash advances, so i'm trying to get that under control.but after that i hope to notice some more $ around here lol..my wife and kids sure deserve something nice like a vacation..soon i hope


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I actually took the doctors word and waited the almost 72 hours before being seen. Only reason really was because I didn't want to spend another cent on pills. I don't really advise doing that.. I was also seen on a monday and that weekend was the longest 2 days of my life!

One thing you have to look forward to is a hell of alot of freedom! No more pills is going to open a huge amount of time in your life. You might expect to have some insomnia the first couple days.. I would also shy away from trazadone if thats what they decide to give ya for a sleep aid. It made me horribly sick for some reason.

Good luck and I think you will find a bit of self worth in this process, which is really great considering how much we beat ourselves down going through the addiction cycle. Continue to build on that self worth and you will be golden.

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Hi all! I took the last of what I had as far as norcos. I was down to 2 pills yesterday, took one at about 6pm, and woke up about 7 this morning with cold sweats and a little bit of restless legs, and I took my last pill! I'm actually not doing too bad right now, just counting down the hours til my appointment! My husband, God love him, went to Walmart this morning and got me some vitamin B12... he read that it helps a little. I took one of those, maybe that's helping, but again it hasn't been too long since my last dose. I'm just used to taking 2 or 3 pills at a time and now that I'm trying to get my head straight, I'm asking myself, "why did I always have to do that?" Why didn't I just take 1 pill at a time, as directed and not abuse them? I guess we all ask ourselves this question. I've actually been thinking that if I could just skip my appt tomorrow and get enough to last me, pick up my refil in a couple weeks and start using them as directed, everything would be ok. But, I'm determined not to spend another cent on pills and I know that'll only last so long til I'm right back where I am now.

I've gone over this post and all the replies about 100 times, every time I read over it, I feel better about my induction. There's just so many thoughts going through my head... What if it doesn't work? What if I get sick off the subs? What if I'm making a mistake and I want my script for norcos back, my dr is not going to give them back. I keep reading how you all had those same thoughts and how the subs took over and made those cravings go away. I pray that's what happens and after I get that first dose, I'll be just fine. I'm almost certain that's whats gonna happen, but those thoughts keep coming back.

If I don't update again tonight, you'll all know I'm trying to sleep this off, but I will be back tomorrow afternoon! Thank you all and God bless you.


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Hi shadow,

I'm sorry I haven't responded till now. I would have if I had been online...I see so much of myself in your posts! That is exactly how I felt 3 months ago when I started! I just want you to know that you will not regret this choice. I was so scared to go in to the doctor and start this for the same reasons, mainly I knew I was cutting off my supply with my other doctor by admitting I had a problem. I was scared to death that I was going to still be hurting and I would not find relief from the subs. It is just not true! In fact, I found out that most of my pain was WORSE while I was on pain pills than without it because of the constant withdrawal. I'm sure you know what I mean, I would take my last dose a couple hours before bed, and wake up EARLY in the morning already in pain. I thought it was because my pain was so bad that when the pills wore off I was hurting again when in reality I was going into withdrawal every time in between doses and that makes any pain you already have seem SOOOO much worse than it really is. I know you will find that you are having less pain and will be more comfortable on the suboxone than if you continued on your pain pills. It is just so scary to start something new, especially something this life changing. Please don't fool yourself into thinking you can get that next refill and control yourself. I wasted so many months saying that next time I would make my pills last all month. I would even tell myself I was going to give them to my mom or my husband to hold them for me and tell them to only give me what is prescribed. Well guess what...every time I would get my refill I would decide I could do it myself, I don't need to give them to anyone, I'll just control myself. Right after I take this first dose of four or five at a time I will only take one at a time from here on out....It never happened. I would be out in a week and hitting the street for more every time. And so will you. You can't control it, it is too hard and it wont work. But you can succeed if you go to that appointment monday. You are probly starting to feel bad right now...just tough it out. It is sooooo worth it!!!!!!!! Just remember that if you can just make it through the next 24 hours of withdrawal you will NEVER have to go through this hell again!!!!!!

We have all had to go through exactly what you are doing right now and we all made it through....so can u! Just do what you have to do. Get some immodium and remember that hot baths help alot with the body aches. Who cares if you have to live in the bathtub for the next few hours. Do whatever you have to do to get through it and you will be better on monday!

I look forward to hearing from you on Monday afternoon. You will be so happy you did it! And we will be here for you and help you through whatever you need after that.

You go girl!!! You can do it!!!!


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You got this sHadow!!.. I will be sending out positive thoughts for you tomorrow!! I'm quite certain you will be thinking "why didn't i do this sooner!" like i did. But what matters is that you're onboard now!


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Just wanted to pipe in and say

[marq=right]GOOOOOOOD LUCK tommorow!!!!!!![/marq]


I truely hope everything goes well.
and yes, we do 'grieve' the loss of our best friend, when we leave behind our beloved pills. that friend filled every single aspect of your life, and then its gone.

Just try and think of a hobby, or activity you've always wanted to do, but never had the $, time, etc.

I think this helps alot. distraction seems to be the key.

Good luck on your journey,,,,,,,
now the real work starts!!!!!
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Hey Everybody! I don't have much time right now, I have to get my husband to work. It took a little longer to do everything than I thought, but I DID IT! I AM FEELING GREAT NOW! I am going to take my husband to work, I'll be back shortly and I will update you all, but your encouragement has meant so much to me, I wanted you to know that I did go to my appt. I'll be back in a bit ;)


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Yay! I was thinking about you this morning. What a relief huh? Can't wait to hear all about it!


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Congrats! It's amazing what this medication does. It is truly wonderful
Please tell us how everything went and what you felt.
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Congrats shadow, I've bn following your thread an so glad you are doing well this first day! It is an amazing feeling.onward and upward . . Razor..


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Hi everyone! So I woke up this morning feeling pretty shitty, but fortunately I did sleep pretty well with the help of the ambien. Yesterday evening I had a few bouts of diarrhea and stomach cramps, sweats, headache, ya know all that good stuff that goes on when you go into withdrawals. At 6:30 this morning, my legs were hurting so bad, I was counting down the minutes till my appt. at 9. That few hours felt like forever!

I do have insurance, but when I got there the receptionist told me they don't take my insurance and my appt was gonna be $400! I broke down. I walked out of the office, to my car and cried so hard I could barely breathe. My husband was at home with our daughter, he made arrangements at work to come in later and I didn't want to take her to my appt because I wasn't sure how long I'd be there. Anyway, he was so great, told me that we have $500 overdraft protection on our checking acct., just to give them my debit card and use the protection. We only had about $150 in our acct. I wanted to leave, but I was already dreading having to start making those phone calls or texts looking for hydros or norcs. He assured me that we would be alright, to just use it and we’d get caught up this Friday. So, I went back in, gave her my debit card and filled out all their paper work. I waited about 45 min and was called back.

My dr was sooooo GREAT! He talked to me about my DOC, and about how this addiction isn’t my fault. It sucked though because he doesn’t give you your first dose in the office anymore, so I had to wait longer to get my script filled. I left there, went to the pharmacy. My insurance needs a “PA”, whatever that is. I guess some kind of note from my dr stating why I need to be on this medication because it’s so expensive… Anyway, the receptionist gave me a co pay card so that my script would be a little cheaper if my ins wouldn’t pay, but I guess you have to have at least 14 films filled at once to get the $50 off from the card, and because it was so expensive I only got 14 filled today, I’ll get the rest Friday and that’ll give my drs office time to send the PA to the insurance company. It was kind of a mess this morning, mainly because I was feeling so bad while I was trying to get it all taken care of.

I took about 2 mgs of the strip in the car, I’m not sure exactly how much I took because I didn’t have anything to cut it with so I had to tear it. I got home and was already feeling much better. I took another tiny strip, so I’ve taken about 3 mgs so far. I ate some McDonalds on our way to take my husband to work and after I ate, I got a little nauseated and a little shaky, but I do understand that my body is gonna take a little time getting used to a new med, especially one this strong.

I did it though! I went through with the appt., and even thought about leaving, but I did it. I am honestly not craving a pill and that’s a pretty good feeling! I hope the nausea
subsides after a couple days, because there’s no turning back now. I really want this med to work for me, and I want to work for the med. My dr said I’d be on the subs at least a year before we started to taper, and when we do it’s gonna be a very slow taper. He prescribed me 2 8mg strips a day, but obviously if I don’t need that much, I’m not going to take it. I’m gonna try to get by on as little as possible. He told me that he is a strong advocate for suboxone treatment and this med, “will save my life!” I pray he’s right. I’ll update again later, after I take a little more sub and let you all know how it’s going.

I am so thankful for my awesome husband. Today, he really showed me how much he supports me. I know he’s enabled me for a long time, helping me to get the pain pills, but now that I’m ready, he’s helping me to get the help I need. I am actually thinking of him in a whole new way. It’s one thing to get me pills when I need them, it’s expensive, but in the short term, it’s probably easier to do that and just get me what I want so I’m not sick, but it’s completely different when he’s supporting me to get sober. It’s strained us financially, and today was even worse because of how expensive the appt was, but the money didn’t even faze him. I could tell when I dropped him off that he was honestly happier then he’s been in a long time. I’m getting help and that’s a great feeling for both of us.

Thank you all for your support and encouragement. I told my husband I had to get on and let you guys know how it went, it’s amazing how much a group of internet strangers can help you when you need it most. I am so glad I joined and I’m thankful that I have you all for the support. Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart.


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