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 Post subject: Newbie Story!
PostPosted: Thu Dec 03, 2015 11:35 am 
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Hi all!

I have been a reader for awhile, but finally signed up and started posting.

My story starts about 13 years ago when I was diagnosed with endometriosis but it never became a real issue until 2012. I'll never forget that first "wow i'm more talkative.. wow, im more relaxed.. wow, I can function" feeling when I took my first percocet (my DOC). I was 14 years old when I was diagnosed with endometriosis which there is no cure for and it is a disease all about managing symptoms. In order to manage the one symptom, pain, pain meds were pretty much thrown at me at a very young age. Emergency room visits? Here have 15 percocets... Having cyclical pain? Here is another 40.

I'll spare the details about my medical history because i'll be here all day...but I have had 13 surgeries, 7 of which were done in the time frame from October 2012 until October 2013. When I bled out after a surgery and developed a large abdominal wall hematoma and my pain could not be controlled outside of the hospital, my gyn consulted and referred me to a pain management specialist. They sent me home from the hospital later that night with an rx for fentanyl 50mcg and 10 mg percocets. Sadly, I ended up having a hysterectomy on my 24th birthday but it was one of the best decisions I have made. After the hysterectomy, most of my pain subsided...which means no.more.pain.meds.

Throughout Oct 2012-Sept 2013 whole time period, my life fell out from beneath me. All my classmates from high school were progressing with their lives, getting married and having kids (not that I wanted kids), while my life came to a screeching halt. I lost a great job, my apartment, my relationship was very strained and unhealthy, and I was overall depressed. Always remembering that great first feeling I had, I began to abuse my medications more and more to suppress the feelings of what I was going through.

Over the course of October 2013 through February 2014, my pain management doctor started weaning me off the pain medication. I would run out earlier and earlier each month, so I had to turn to other routes. My boyfriend of 3 years left me, and I was at an all time low. I went to my PM in February 2014 (my last appt w him) and told him about the withdrawal feelings, hoping he would up my dose so I could get it filled early. Nope, didnt work. I was on 12mcg of fentanyl already so I said screw it, i'm just going off it. A week later I got my perocets filled...and From there, it became convincing doctors WHY I still needed percocets (I did have 3 additional surgeries after my hysterectomy). I eventually got another job, but ended up losing it because I could not function without the meds.

Fast forward to Memorial Day weekend 2015. Me being me, blew through all my percocets the first 2 days I was out of town..so I was screwed for the last 2 days until I came home. When I woke up Tuesday morning at home, something inside of me said "I dont want to do this anymore."... I had always dabbled in suboxone when I was out of meds because my best friend was on it for 6+ years. I felt it was the best option for me.

My doctor started me on 2 mg and I have been 2 mg for the last 6 months. I have not slipped up since starting suboxone and consider it a true lifesaver. I have my bachelor's degree already and was on the path to becoming a nurse when my disease flared up. I am PROUD to say I am back in college, have all A's in my courses, a job I LOVE, a great boyfriend and a supportive family. I have started seeing a substance abuse therapist who is really supportive and understanding. Other circumstances have come up (whole other post) that have made me say "may be nursing just isnt meant to be." Now I am considering getting my LCSW or substance abuse counselor cert. I know for sure i want to work in substance abuse. For once, I feel like I am progressing and I am at a great point in my life.

So.. if youre still reading this, THANK YOU! I apologize for the long rant, but it is always best to have a full understanding.

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 Post subject: Re: Newbie Story!
PostPosted: Thu Dec 03, 2015 12:26 pm 
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Hi Doxie! Welcome! You will find lots of support here! You are so smart to have started on 2mgs and to have realized that is what works for you! I started on 24mgs and have tapered to 6mgs and am trying to go to 4mgs. I don't know that I will ever stop taking subs because they help with pain from osteoarthritis and depression that came along with menopause.It is nice to have you here! Hope you will be sticking around!


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 Post subject: Re: Newbie Story!
PostPosted: Fri Dec 04, 2015 12:17 am 
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Hi Doxie, and welcome to posting here!

I have a bachelor's degree in history from a long time ago. I was getting prereqs together for applying for a BA to BS in nursing, but I had to admit my opiate addiction and decided that I shouldn't go into nursing. Instead I applied to an online masters degree program in addiction studies through a university. I am two semesters into the program. If you're interested, feel free to PM me and I'll tell you about the program.

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