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SubWayC2O wrote:I'm pretty early in the game. I've already beat bupe once. Was able to stay off for nearly 5 whole years. But that was mainly due to the fact that I no longer had a script. I worked with multiple doctors to slowly taper me off over the course of two years, and once I was around the 0.025 area I just jumped ship completely. Never noticed a thing.
Now, years later, I have access to buprenorphine/naloxone once again. Same story as last time. Not using it to beat some other active opiate addiction, it's just for the love of Suboxone itself.
So like I said in the beginning, I'm still just getting started here. I dont want to delve too deep into it for fear of not being able to get off again. I've only taken it a handful of times thus far, and each time I've been able to wait a few weeks in between. One time I was even able to go over a month before giving in. Although that's not really the way I like to think about it. It felt more like experimentation to me.
So now here I stand. It's been a little over a week. I've done plenty of exercise and healthy eating and life style habits in the mean time. I feel like I'm completely free of this drug. That is, except for the desire to use. What I'm trying to say is, I'm not suffering from any withdrawal symptoms what so ever.
The easiest way for me to compare it would be kind of like my relationship with food. I know it's around, I know I'm going to eat some EVENTUALLY, but for the most part I'm able to contain myself and always make what seems like the right choice at the time.
So what should I do? There's no way I can even fathom just outright throwing away all 20 of my 8mg pills, along with some of the main brand strips that I have at my disposal.
On the other hand, there's also no way for me to say that realistically I will be able to say no to them forever. I mean, they are always just sitting there within arms reach. So what are my options here?