Mon Feb 10, 2014 9:36 pm
hello to all of the so supportive friends I've made on this forum, from whom I've received good advice, and encouragement during rough times.
my thread title says it all. things are looking up so much for me lately. I'm really enjoying time with my children and my boyfriend who had told me the last few weeks multiple times how proud he is of me. we are doing lots of things together, taking walks, having slumber parties with the kids, taking long atv rides on the farm together, and all without having tostop for me to take a handful of pills or go home cuz im sick with wd!
earlier this afternoon, Steve my bf, came home from work to tell me not to make any plans for this weekend cause hes got a surprise lined up for me for Valentine's day and as a special way to show me how much my getting serious about getting well has meant to him. he said the difference is night and day, and that he had "missed" me so much when I was " out there". those words meant so much to me to hear, I cried a little bit, yup, like a little emotional girl, lol! I realized that many of the problems and fights we'd been havingbefore really were due to my addiction and obsession with scoring and taking drugs, and placing that above all else, including my kids and my man. it's hard to realize that I ruined our vacations, outings, get togethers with my need to fix every four hours, it's shameful, really. .... but, I know I can't live on the past anymore, cause I have allot of good living to look forward to now that I'm doing so much better. good times to be had with my children, baseball season for them coming up soon, planting my garden this year, I didn't even touch it last year, and it's been a real hobby of mine. and I can only guess what Steve may have up his Lil sleeve for this weekend.. wooo hoo! I'm excited like a Lil kid! somebody pinch me! I can hardly believe how much things have changed! just feeling good and happy and wanted to share what great things can come from leaving the active addiction lifestyle behind, so that anyone whose considering sub as an option, will have a good story to read, because I know there's lots of bad ones out there and it's just not that way for everyone! it's worth a try to get your life back! thanks everybody!
I hope this doesn't sound, eye rollingly, bubbly, happy etc, cause I know not everyone is having such a great time of things right now, and I want them to know that I'm keeping them in my thoughts, and praying for good outcomes for all in recovery! you all have been invaluable to me reading this forum everyday!