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PostPosted: Fri Aug 22, 2014 9:01 am 
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Hey BF, day 56 for me today. I'll hit the two month mark on Tuesday, wow. Seems like the time has flown by.

Sorry to have to tell you this, but my sponsee moved from the shelter to a treatment place, and that's where we meet now. No more donut nights 2 or 3 times a week. And I don't eat pizza unless it's homemade with a very thin crust and lots of healthy ingredients. You'll have to find a new psy-ops strategy.

Hope you're well, you hit 60 days on Monday.

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CONGRATULATIONS Jump Bro-Son
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PS. Now drop and give me 60 thousand sit ups! lol

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Thanks, BF, I was coming to my thread to do a 60-day update, and it's a pleasure to see your post. I miss swapping posts with you on the forum.

So, yes, 2 months for me today. Can't believe how quickly I got here.

I woke up this morning with a tremendous amount of joy, just glad to be alive. Tomorrow might be another story, and i can count of getting my usual quota of resentments and self-centered fears today, just like any day. But I don't live in resentment, dishonesty, selfishness and fear; these are things that I can let the creator take away almost as quickly as they come (as long as I'm willing to let them go). When they're gone, I'm at peace, no matter what's going on around me.

My life has changed a lot in 60 days. I'm packing for a move on the weekend, to a place that should be a big improvement compared to where I am now. I've committed to a trying to make a relationship work with someone I met during my Subs taper; early days still, but we have a very powerful connection, and so far it's been really good. Six months ago (while on Methadone or Subs), this kind of honesty and intimacy would have seen me running away like Usain Bolt chasing a gold medal.

I've also had to get honest about the fact that the company where I work is shaky and that, while we should have enough biz to carry us through to next spring, my work situation is uncertain over the longer term (though at the end of the day I have no idea really how things might go). Rather than get smothered in fear and resentment over the uncertainty, like I did while on Methadone/Subs, I've come to see this situation as an opportunity to start looking around for a chance to start making a living at something closer to my heart than what I'm doing now.

The usual platitude is, 'it won't be easy, but nothing worthwhile ever is'...but that's not really true. If I let myself be guided by The Creator, as I've managed to do in other areas of my life (like addiction), it's incredible how easy things can be.

Anyways, that's my 60-day update. I haven't looked back once since getting off Methadone/Subs, and I find myself spending less and less time fretting about the future. Sobriety is about having the ability to enjoy what I have right now.

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Congrats JI on 60 days, a new place to live and the relationship. All good stuff!!!!!

Years ago I was an executive assistant for lawyers. I worked in an office for 15 or so years. I HATED it and dreaded the 8 to 5 daily grind. I did it because the money was very good but the work was so unrewarding and I was miserable. As luck would have it, I found myself unemployed and in a position to follow my heart and do what I wanted to do for a job not what I had to do for a job. Although I took a MAJOR paycut, I have never been happier. Even though I get aggravated with the night shifts and weekends I think to myself "would you rather sit in a cubicle for 8 hours getting barked at by lawyers, being miserable or walk around getting barked atby dogs". I will always choose the latter!!!!!

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Hey JI, loved your 60 day update! You see, even though you ARE "Canadian", I really do care what you have to say :wink:
SO, how is day 65 going for you?

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Hi guys thnx for the posts.

In the middle of packing for my move tomorrow, I'll reply when I'm back on my laptop in a couple days.

Apart from packing/move, I've been really good.

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PostPosted: Tue Sep 02, 2014 3:19 pm 
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Hi guys, promised I would update when able, so here goes, though not a lot to say.

I moved yesterday -- myself and a friend who was moving into a new place too -- spent Sunday packing, and spent Saturday on the road all day doing errands, fighting the CNE traffic. I'm completely zoned out, doing my best to fake a workday.

I absolutely love my new place, and have been really happy all weekend. Saw some close friends yesterday (who helped us move), got to spend Friday and Saturday night visiting my GF at her place in the country, and had a really nice visit with my parents Sunday morning.

Absolutely need to get my ass to my home group tonite, but tomorrow night I can start getting my place into shape.

Hope everyone is having a great day.

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Hey JI- Congrats on the move! Onward and upward! Hey, what day(s) are we on anyways? lol...somewhere between 60-70 right? I'm just looking forward now towards month 3!!

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Hey BF, I picked up my 2-month chip at my home group last Tuesday, so two days ago was 67 days for me. Tomorrow must be day 70 for me, and 71 or 72 for you.

But who's counting, lol?

Hope you're having a great day.

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TGIF Jump Bro-Son! Had to go hunting on page 2 for your thread! WTF?!!! You've been slacking Son!! hahaha

I have the day off again to rest, and am going "postal". I need entertainment and reading material!!
(Romeo, if you are reading this please do not post excerpts from War and Peace- Ha!!)

JI!! Update please!
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Hey BF, that's funny, I took a day to "work at home today," at least that was the plan, though apart from a couple emails and some CA-related calls, not a lot of work has gotten done so far. Eff it, I'm having a slack day.

I've been feeling a little worn out this week, and Toronto has turned as cold as a you-know-what's you-know-what, so I'm fighting off a cold.

(Trouble is, I've been going out of town every weekend for the last month to visit my GF, and I've been ending each weekend more tired than I started. I'm too old for this kind of sh*t, lol.)

If War and Peace won't do it for you, how about Brothers Karamazov or Anna Karina? :mrgreen:

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TGIF Jump Bro-Son! Had to go hunting on page 2 for your thread! WTF?!!! You've been slacking Son!! hahaha

I have the day off again to rest, and am going "postal". I need entertainment and reading material!!
(Romeo, if you are reading this please do not post excerpts from War and Peace- Ha!!)

JI!! Update please!
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Hey BF, that's funny, I took a day to "work at home today," at least that was the plan, though apart from a couple emails and some CA-related calls, not a lot of work has gotten done so far. Eff it, I'm having a slack day.

I've been feeling a little worn out this week, and Toronto has turned as cold as a you-know-what's you-know-what, so I'm fighting off a cold.

(Trouble is, I've been going out of town every weekend for the last month to visit my GF, and I've been ending each weekend more tired than I started. I'm too old for this kind of sh*t, lol.)

If War and Peace won't do it for you, how about Brothers Karamazov or Anna Karina? :mrgreen:

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Hey JI,
Not sure about ^^^^ but Anna KARENINA is not a bad read! (dumb ass! - JK!!!!! :lol: )
Never heard of Brothers Whatsitz....must be some stupid Canadian thing (OMG I'm really asking for it, right? hahaha!!)

Sorry you are getting a cold! You and Trainer been swapping germs or something? lol

And hey, I certainly hope you are not feeling too old for whatever it is your girlfriend is putting you through on the weekends dude! Tell your Dr. to increase your Viagra scrip maybe?? (LOL- sorry- I really don't know what has gotten into me today!!)

Enjoy the rest of your "slack day" you slacker!
(I'm obviously slacking here too....I brought home all this "work"....pfft.....work is for losers.....)(hahaha)

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Hey JI- Hope all is well- I just pm-ed you bro-son.

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Hey JI,

Congratulations on such a long time to be free of all opiates! You must be some kind of great writer because this thread has 354 posts!! All in only 67+ days & nights.

Keep on doing what you're doing, it seems to be right. Day 90 is a big one. You've heard the saying "90 meetings in 90 days"? It is because that number is so elusive. I read in Men's Health magazine awhile back that it takes 30 days to form a habit, but 90 days to break it. Whether or not that is true I cannot say. Someone wrote it, I read it and it stuck in my brain. So the drum roll is on for that 90 day chip ~~~~~~~~~

It is heartwarming to read such a success story as yours.

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Hi BF, just sent you a PM back, i was amused by your posts, not the least bit offended.

Um, don't need any Viagra just yet, but thanks for the suggestion.

BTW Anne of Green Gables is the Canadian thing, Anna Karina is Russian, but I understand how these cultural and literary differences might by a little too subtle for some of my friends south of the border, lol.

Hope you're having a great weekend, i sure am.

-- ji

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johnny_ikon wrote:
Hey BF, that's funny, I took a day to "work at home today," at least that was the plan, though apart from a couple emails and some CA-related calls, not a lot of work has gotten done so far. Eff it, I'm having a slack day.

I've been feeling a little worn out this week, and Toronto has turned as cold as a you-know-what's you-know-what, so I'm fighting off a cold.

(Trouble is, I've been going out of town every weekend for the last month to visit my GF, and I've been ending each weekend more tired than I started. I'm too old for this kind of sh*t, lol.)

If War and Peace won't do it for you, how about Brothers Karamazov or Anna Karina? :mrgreen:

-- ji


Hey JI,
Not sure about ^^^^ but Anna KARENINA is not a bad read! (dumb ass! - JK!!!!! :lol: )
Never heard of Brothers Whatsitz....must be some stupid Canadian thing (OMG I'm really asking for it, right? hahaha!!)

Sorry you are getting a cold! You and Trainer been swapping germs or something? lol

And hey, I certainly hope you are not feeling too old for whatever it is your girlfriend is putting you through on the weekends dude! Tell your Dr. to increase your Viagra scrip maybe?? (LOL- sorry- I really don't know what has gotten into me today!!)

Enjoy the rest of your "slack day" you slacker!
(I'm obviously slacking here too....I brought home all this "work"....pfft.....work is for losers.....)(hahaha)

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Thanks, Rule. I've kind of lost count of where i am, but i know i'm coming up on 90 days towards the end of the month, and that will definitely by a milestone to celebrate.

Each week seems to get better and better in its own way.

Big thanks to everyone on the forum who's supported me, and supported everyone else who's jumped or is thinking of jumping. My jump would have been a lot harder without the support.

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Hey JI,

Congratulations on such a long time to be free of all opiates! You must be some kind of great writer because this thread has 354 posts!! All in only 67+ days & nights.

Keep on doing what you're doing, it seems to be right. Day 90 is a big one. You've heard the saying "90 meetings in 90 days"? It is because that number is so elusive. I read in Men's Health magazine awhile back that it takes 30 days to form a habit, but 90 days to break it. Whether or not that is true I cannot say. Someone wrote it, I read it and it stuck in my brain. So the drum roll is on for that 90 day chip ~~~~~~~~~

It is heartwarming to read such a success story as yours.

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Hi BF, just sent you a PM back, i was amused by your posts, not the least bit offended.

Um, don't need any Viagra just yet, but thanks for the suggestion.

BTW Anne of Green Gables is the Canadian thing, Anna Karina is Russian, but I understand how these cultural and literary differences might by a little too subtle for some of my friends south of the border, lol.

Hope you're having a great weekend, i sure am.

-- ji


Well, that's a relief because your "amusement" has become my new life's work! :lol:

I do find a bit of "good natured ribbing" pretty funny, but I understand that feelings can get hurt because when "some people" tease me pretty harshly (not mentioning names here...cough cough cough ROMEO cough cough...LOL!!) sometimes my sensitive addict ego can get a bit bruised...glad to hear your's is in tact though!
When you didn't post back the same day, I started to worry a bit that I had crossed the line calling you a "dumb ass', and saying that Canadian's were "stupid"....

....and on that note, CHECK YOUR SPELLING YOU STUPID DUMB ASS! :lol: :lol: :lol:
It's Anna KarENINA not Anna Karina!! (For the SECOND time! lol! And I do know that is Russian btw...)

About the "Canadian thing" you mentioned? Yeah, ...who cares....

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Awright BF, so my spellcheck knocked the 'en' out of Karenina...get off my back, woman :cry:

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Awright BF, so my spellcheck knocked the 'en' out of Karenina...get off my back, woman :cry:

-- ji

Aww come on now! That might have worked a few days ago, but now I know you are tough enough to take it!!
Man up, bro!! (and stop blaming poor innocent "spell checK"! For shame! :lol: )

Glad you're feeling well and happy and "sub free"!! About 10 more days until 3 months! Can you believe it?
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Hi guys, today is my three-month jump anniversary. Don't really have time to be writing an update at the moment, but if I don't do it now, don't know when I'll have a chance.

So, three months, what a trip. I can remember being pretty overwhelmed at times during the last month of my taper and first weeks of my jump. Sleeplessness and exhaustion, emotional turmoil, etc. Just can't believe how much things have changed in 90 days, and even more so compared to my years on Methadone/Subs.

First thing is the sense of calm and inner peace that I've got most of the time -- not always, still tapping into some grieving and occasional self-centered fear during my morning meditation, but those things feel almost separate from me, not a central part of who I am.

A lot of life changes in 90 days; more plugged in than ever to my AA/CA program, doing the steps daily and sponsoring guys (well, 1 guy at the moment), plus a lot of service work.

My work situation is so-so, I'm helping run a small business that has a fairly uncertain future, and working in a field that's a little meh to me. But I've been pursuing some new opportunities for our biz, and also getting a foot into another area which I'm more keen on. Nothing that will result in major changes next week, but could see some interesting developments over the next few months.

The timing is interesting; I've feel like I'm working more effectively than I have in years, and continuing to improve as early jump factors -- fatigue, lack of concentration, motivation -- fade away. These new opportunities seem to be coming up just as I find myself more able than ever to take advantage of them (coincidence is The Creator's way of staying anonymous, as they say).

Started a relationship last month with someone I really care about; early days still, but it's been really good so far. Have been able to navigate my way through some intimacy issues that made it impossible for me to have any sort of meaningful relationship during my addiction/methadone/subs years.

Don't want to give the impression that everything is perfection and candy in my life, because it's definitely not. But I have a constant sense of progress -- am not stuck like I was -- and no matter how hairy things might get, I get through them with some sense of inner peace, and a confidence that i'll be able to deal with whatever happens.

I was talking to a friend's sponsee last night, a guy who is tapering off of methadone. I had no hesitation -- and genuinely meant it -- telling him if he thinks he's ready, it could be the best thing he ever does for himself. That's how I feel about my own jump.

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