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Day 25

Day one at .4 mg a day

Happy to be under .5 mg a day, switched to liquid taper from here on out. its just easier and simpler, and way, way, more accurate. But I will note this: I 'felt' my dose for the very first time, in other words I think the liquid taper allowed the sub to be ingested much more quickly. It hit me all at once and don't know any other way to say it other than i felt my dose. That never happened before today, and being that today was my first liquid dose, there may be a connection//

All other symtoms/cravings nil.

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Day 26

Day two at .4 mg a day.

Glad to be where I am, happy to see light at the end of the tunnel. I want to remain humble and thankful. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

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Day 27

Day three at .4 mg a day

Things are going well. I'm excited to be where I am, I'm excited to be reducing again in two days.

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Day 28

Day four at .4 mg a day

Four weeks!! Four weeks without any drugs. As I look back at the past month in some ways it seems a long time, but in reality it's been a bit of a blur actually. The time has passed quickly for me. I am happy, and humbled. And very,very thankful. I hardly recognize the madness that was my life. I shake my head and ponder how it got so flipping crazy. Madness, complete and utter madness. But hen in the midst of the madness, I never had a sober day to ponder what a complete waste my life had become. Thank you all.

Tomorrow we go down, down, down. I've had no problems at all doing this taper, No cravings, no nothing. I could not be happier.

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Four weeks! That is fantastic! I can't believe how low you are already and not even sick. What a different experience when you're only on Sub short-term. (Disclosure: I'm not saying it's good or bad to use Sub short-term or long-term. Just commenting on how different it apparently is, so please nobody jump my butt).

I'm so very stuck right now at 2 mg. I CAN'T reduce anymore until my symptoms let up. Mainly, I've got the aches something fierce. I have no idea how to tell whether it's only w/d or my fibromyalgia is flaring. I haven't been eating as healthy as I should or exercising, so I wouldn't be surprised if my fibro really IS flaring. Anyway, Alleve helps, but I know when I'm at the point where I shouldn't push it. Hopefully, this will all even out in the next couple weeks. Oh, and I am chronically cold and more tired than normal. Aside from that, all's well. :lol:

Thanks for continuing to post your taper!

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Just a quick thought, ladder - It could be that the suboxone has been (at the higher dose) relieving some of the pain of the fibro. I know it helps mine. It's the main reason I'll probably stay on sub forever, because I can never go back to full agonists and the only other thing I can take for it is Zanaflex. Without it my pain would be unbearable.

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it certainly seems that short term suboxone users have a much easier time tapering, and quicker tapers with less side effects. That's just what I gather from research and reading. All I can say is that I haven't felt much of anything. I'm looking at roughly 2 more weeks for a grand total of a six week taper from start to finish. Another compounding factor is that I was lucky enough to induct at roughly 2 mg a day. That from a 180 mg a day oxycodone habit.

I will say that I have cranked up the exercise to a fairly high level. I do work out very intensely (I always have). I enjoy the pump of lifting big weights, and I love the high I get doing intense cardio. I firmly believe that this has helped me ramp up my natural endorphin release. And I've been eating really clean.

And to be honest, I never expected any problems. That may sound cocky, but I just had such a positive feeling (still do) that this was the path I was supposed to be taking. Since about day four, my anxiety has been constantly low. I'm not cocky person. I'm usually very quiet. I can only say that I've felt very confident tat this taper was right for me. I also realize that I must remain humble, 'pride goeth before the fall'. I understand this will be a battle until the day I die. I know that soon, somewhere down the road I'll be in a situation where I will be tempted. I hope, I think, I have the strength to say no. I've had zero cravings. Zero.

I pray that my taper end successfully. And I get a chance, just this one chance to stay clean. That's all I want, just one chance.

Who here wouldn't give a King's ransom to be sober, and have just a chance to stay that way??

I thank you all, and wish you the very best.


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Day 29

Day one at .3 mg a day

More snow today. Ugh. C'mon spring. I'm lucky to not be working,

As to my taper, glad to be going down today. Life is better, sometimes it's almost even good. Looks like two more weeks til jump from .1 mg a day.

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Day 30

Day two at .3 mg a day

Another day closer, another day farther away. Closer to being free, farther away from the madness. Happy, thankful, and humbled. What madness my life had become.

I wish you all the best whatever path your on, may you find success, happiness, peace.

All the Best!!

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Day 31

Day one at .25 mg a day

The taper s going great, zero problems, zero cravings. What an incredible month. Lot's of reflection, lots of hope.

I am so very thankful for simple things. Sleep, laughter, sunlight, friend.

I'd become a hermit. It's hard looking back isn't it??

I wish you all the best, whatever your day brings.

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Just a quick thought, ladder - It could be that the suboxone has been (at the higher dose) relieving some of the pain of the fibro. I know it helps mine. It's the main reason I'll probably stay on sub forever, because I can never go back to full agonists and the only other thing I can take for it is Zanaflex. Without it my pain would be unbearable.


Yes, I'm positive that Sub at a higher dose was really helping with my fibro. No doubt about it!! I mean, it helped to the point that when my mom would be talking about hers, I'd be like, "oh yeah, I just had a little flare but boy, it wasn't a big deal, etc. etc." I forgot how nasty this thing can be. At the same time, I really can fight my fibro without drugs. I've watched my mom do it. At 60 she got her black belt in Tae Kwon Do and was so in shape and her symptoms were all but gone. Now, she's not sleeping enough, she had to stop Tae Kwon Do because of work and she's gained twenty lbs and her fibro is kicking her ass again. I never believed her about the 'healthy lifestyle' making a difference. However, it makes a world of difference!! The bottom line is that if I knew that despite my best efforts to be healthy (through exercise and rest and healthy habits and all that) my fibro would still be crippling, then I'd need to take Sub forever to be able to function. If it ever gets to where I cannot control it, I'd go back on Sub versus regular opiates because I do not trust my addict brain. The truth is that I'm not putting much effort into working out right now. Tapering in the winter can be especially crippling and the gym seems so far away and so....exhausting. The THOUGHT of lifting weights is even hard for my brain to lift. I'm doing little things like walks (when it's warm) and jumping on the trampoline, but that's not sufficient. I've gotta get back to the gym to whip this thing into shape. As soon as I'm stable as 2 mg, I'm committed to getting back into the swing of it all. Right now, this 'invisible' disease is sticking knives in my elbows. That's where I always get it the worst. There and my back. My whole back gets so tense that it's all a big pressure point and it someone presses it, I just collapse from the agony of it. i cannot stand massages. They just hurt too badly. My back will get better once I get back to the gym and start doing stuff like yoga and getting those muscles to relax. How did this turn into a vent? :lol: Honestly, though, I'm just waiting and waiting for 'them' to find out what exactly is going on in my body that causes this stuff. All I have to show for this is an elevated rheumatoid factor and a family history of it. Hey, at least we do not have the other nasty diseases that cause the same symptoms. I remember having to be tested for the scary stuff, like Lupus and MS, so I'm a little grateful it's fibro, KWIM? And at least it's recognized now, unlike when my poor grandma had it and was told there was nothing wrong and to just suck it up. I cannot imagine how she must have felt

I'm curious if your fibro was brought on by a traumatic event. Looking at my grandma and mom and myself, this seems to be our pattern and my neurologist has said it's typically triggered by something. My grandma had her little girl die. My mom was in a car wreck. And I....fell off a ladder.

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Looking back, I think my fibro started after my hysterectomy. I've heard of the trauma theory, it's a very interesting one, but I'll admit I don't know the mechanics of it. I really believe it's also a disorder of the immune system, as I'm on a couple of immuno-suppressant medications and they are actually helping my fibro pain - considerably. Plus, I have two other disorders that are immune related. I really think I have a malfunctioning immune system. It would be nice if they did more studies about it, wouldn't it? Maybe find the true cause rather than theories and and better treatment, if not a cure. But I think I'm being very optimistic. Hopefully time will tell. Take care and I hope you get some pain relief soon. DOQ also has fibro and she's been off sub for something like a year and a half.

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Looking back, I think my fibro started after my hysterectomy. I've heard of the trauma theory, it's a very interesting one, but I'll admit I don't know the mechanics of it. I really believe it's also a disorder of the immune system, as I'm on a couple of immuno-suppressant medications and they are actually helping my fibro pain - considerably. Plus, I have two other disorders that are immune related. I really think I have a malfunctioning immune system. It would be nice if they did more studies about it, wouldn't it? Maybe find the true cause rather than theories and and better treatment, if not a cure. But I think I'm being very optimistic. Hopefully time will tell. Take care and I hope you get some pain relief soon. DOQ also has fibro and she's been off sub for something like a year and a half.


I think it is absolutely immune related. My grandmother got a form of pancreatic cancer common to smokers, yet she never had one cigarette in her life and I know we were told she had some sort of strange immunity thing. My mom has a lung disease that is immune related though it's not fibro. It's bronchiectasis. I doubt I spelled that right. It's where these microbacteria that don't make most people sick go into her lungs and kill a small part and then that part of lung cannot get rid of bacteria the way normal lung tissue does, so the cycle happens again and it gets worse and worse. Both my mom and I always have an elevated white blood cell count too, in addition to the elevated rheumatoid factor. There are so darn many people with fibro and the symptoms are so severe that it's been a shock to me to realize nothing shows up on scans and such. How can my elbows hurt so bad and look fine on scans? It's remarkable. It's frustrating. I'm honestly a little scared to have so much pain that cannot be explained. Even more than that, I am SCARED my daughters will end up with fibro. Even though my big onslaught was after my fall, there were signs very early. For example, my neck always bothered me and by five, I would shrug all the time and tense those muscles. It felt good but my neck is a hot mess muscle-wise. My eight-year old does the SAME thing. She's always saying her neck/back hurt really badly and wants a massage. It's just a bunch of little knots like mine. I'd have this pain five times over if it meant I could know for sure my kids wouldn't have it in the future! My mom told me years ago it WASN'T genetic and I held onto that, so when my symptoms got bad, I thought it couldn't be fibro. What would the chances be? I guess that was the thinking back then, but it now appears that it IS genetic. Dang it, I hope they make some major breakthroughs in this area and I'm so glad we banked my baby's cord blood, just in case it can help somehow. :(

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Day 32

Day two at .25 mg a day

I hate to see January go, it's been a very good month for me. I can only hope February is the same.

Glad to be here, looking towards the future and learning from past mistakes. I can't undo them, so the only good they can do me now is to help me understand which choices to make.

I wish you the best today, whatever your doing, and wherever you are.

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Day three at .25 mg a day

Life is good, taper is great. Just rollin with it think I'll drop down to .20 mg tomorrow.

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Good job. February will be what we make of it, right? So, it can be great! You are doing a great job in being so religious about the small and frequent drops. You're not killing yourself and feeling horrible but you're getting so far very quickly. I wonder if you knew you had it in you!

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I kind of knew I had it in me. I just happen to believe strongly that what I'm doing is right for me. Quitting opiates is just one of many life changes I'm making. I just couldn't go out the way I was going.

I know there are tougher times ahead, I'm glad to know this and can prepare for battle. For maybe the first time in my 43 years I'm planning on living a happy, productive life. Not just existing. I want to live. And live free and happy. Maybe all this had to be.

"Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls;
the most massive characters are seared with scars."
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I kind of knew I had it in me. I just happen to believe strongly that what I'm doing is right for me. Quitting opiates is just one of many life changes I'm making. I just couldn't go out the way I was going.

I know there are tougher times ahead, I'm glad to know this and can prepare for battle. For maybe the first time in my 43 years I'm planning on living a happy, productive life. Not just existing. I want to live. And live free and happy. Maybe all this had to be.

"Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls;
the most massive characters are seared with scars."
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Brother I've got the scars. Big, deep, nasty ones.

how goes your plan??


Very nice quote! I love your attitude. Really living and not just existing is exactly where I want to end up. And the living 'free' thing...I get that. I feel the same way. I'd like to be able to pick up and travel halfway around the world and not have to worry about transporting my Suboxone. I agree with you that in the end, things did have to be the way they were. That is how you (and I) got to be exactly where we are right now. We're just the sum of whatever we came into this world with and our experiences. If you make the best of every day, starting right now at 43, you will pack in a whole lot of great things. It's exciting. It truly is! You wouldn't appreciate your freedom and health and all that if you didn't have all the scars to remind you of your struggles.

Hey, thanks for asking about my 'plan'. :D I feel too disorganized to say it's a plan. I'm not planning to drop anytime soon. This last drop was painful to the max. Being on Sub since 2005 has certainly gotten my body VERY used to having its receptors covered up and they are really pissed of at me for ripping their friends off. This has been incredibly uncomfortable. Then again, when it lets up, it's a beautiful thing. Today is Day 12 at 2 mg for me and it's getting better. I went through some serious symptoms: puking, sweats/chills, insomnia, restless leg, headaches, and big time pain in my elbows and back/neck. I mean, eight hours of labor was not as tough as this drop. However, I never once caved and took any extra over the 2 mg. I stuck with it and only took my Alleve and .5 mg Klonopin, which I'm being very careful with. This makes me feel like SUPERMAN (or woman). I've almost given up on television because it doesn't keep my mind busy enough anymore. So, I started piano and have gotten back into reading, especially when I can't sleep. I think I'm going to finish up Crime and Punishment tonight, and looking forward to that makes the difficulty sleeping less scary. I hope you will stick around, even when you're done, which it looks like you will be quite soon. I'm really happy for you. I know this is a huge accomplishment.

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Wow, I'm so very sorry you have those awful symptoms. My God, what a battle you're in. I wish I could say or do something to make it better. All I have is this: as long as you are moving in the right direction, you will get to where you want to be.

I imagine you too are walking a fine line of pain and living. I feel very, very fortunate to be right where I'm at taperwise. I have lots to do lifewise in getting where I want to be. But I have a plan. That in itself is a miracle. I've pretty much chased my tail me entire life. Long story short, pills cost me a career. I've got a degree and had 18 years in a professional career that went south, due to me. Lots of painful memories there. I had to draw out my retirement and have just one more chance at life, at getting free.

But enough about me. I wish you the best. I thank you for your fellowship and kindness. You are a very kind soul. And in the end, isn't that a great thing??


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Day one at .20 mg a day

HAPPY GROUNDHOG DAY!!

I lived that movie Groundhog Day for a while, had to have my pills. Today is another day. Hope all y'all in the blizzard are hunkered down and safe.

I treasure my sobriety.

All the Best!!

Good Luck and God Bless!!

Day 1 3mg
Day 2 2mg
Day 3 2mg
Day 4 2mg
Day 5 1.5mg
Day 6 1.5mg
Day 7 1.5mg
Day 8 1.125mg
Day 9 1.125mg
Day 10 1.125mg
Day 11 1.00mg
Day 12 1.00mg
Day 13 1.00mg
Day 14 .80 mg
Day 15 .80 mg
Day 16 .80 mg
Day 17 .80 mg
Day 18 .60 mg
Day 19 .60 mg
Day 20 .60 mg
Day 21 .50 mg
Day 22 .50 mg
Day 23 .50 mg
Day 24 .50 mg
Day 25 .40 mg
Day 26 .40 mg
Day 27 .40 mg
Day 28 .40 mg
Day 29 .30 mg
Day 30 .30 mg
Day 31 .25 mg
Day 32 .25 mg
Day 33 .25 mg.
Day 34 .20 mg

_________________
"Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls;
the most massive characters are seared with scars."
Khalil Gibran


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