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Hello. I just registered so I suppose I'll begin by introducing myself. My name is Mark. I've been on a suboxone maintenance program for about 6 months. I noticed that a lot of posters on here know what the date of their induction was. Alas, I couldn't tell you. But I began going to a great clinic in late August of 2011.

My very first experience with opiates and pain medication was quite a few years ago when I was a freshman in college. At the time, opiates were not at all my drug of choice. I was an avid marijuana smoker. I would drink pretty often with friends, though never alone. And I was open to popping any sort of pill that I could come across. At that time, I was really into xanax and other benzodiazepines. I knew this older gentleman who was really messed up medically. He used to get tons of prescriptions from this doctor he knew. I would trade him marijuana for his 2mg xanax bars, but sometimes he wouldn't have enough and he'd convince me to take some methadone off of him instead. All I really knew about methadone was that it was for junkies to get clean. I assumed that it wouldn't be any fun to somebody just trying to get high like myself.

Well, I ended up overdosing one night on methadone, xanax, and alcohol. Technically, I had a stroke. I was 19 years old.

After that, my left leg was numb for a few months. I went into extensive physical therapy and remained sober throughout this period. Slowly, the feeling started to come back along with a painful case of neuropathy. My foot constantly had the sensation of pins and needles, similar to what one feels when a limb "falls asleep" and then wakes up, but many times worse. And the pain was constant. After trying several medications like neurontin and tramadol, my neurologist put me on hydrocodone.

(I know this is getting long so I'll wrap it up.)

Cut to 5 years later and my foot is fine and completely normal, however I have a wicked addiction to pain pills. I found myself beginning to start snorting heroin. I can't say I ever hit a rock bottom. I just became tired of the cycle of extreme highs and horrific, withdrawal-driven lows. Psychologically, I was becoming severely agoraphobic and anti-social.

Fast forward to now. I've been going to a fantastic clinic and have been on suboxone maintenance treatment. I've relapsed about 3 times. As of today, I've been off of heroin (and all other illicit narcotics) for 2 1/2 weeks. My therapists and I have been adjusting my dose lately and I think I'm at a comfortable place. I attended my first NA meeting last Saturday and plan on checking some other ones that my counselor suggested.

Anyway, I'm glad I found this forum. This seems like a positive place for someone in my position.

Thanks for reading.


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Hello. I just registered so I suppose I'll begin by introducing myself. My name is Mark. I've been on a suboxone maintenance program for about 6 months. I noticed that a lot of posters on here know what the date of their induction was. Alas, I couldn't tell you. But I began going to a great clinic in late August of 2011.

My very first experience with opiates and pain medication was quite a few years ago when I was a freshman in college. At the time, opiates were not at all my drug of choice. I was an avid marijuana smoker. I would drink pretty often with friends, though never alone. And I was open to popping any sort of pill that I could come across. At that time, I was really into xanax and other benzodiazepines. I knew this older gentleman who was really messed up medically. He used to get tons of prescriptions from this doctor he knew. I would trade him marijuana for his 2mg xanax bars, but sometimes he wouldn't have enough and he'd convince me to take some methadone off of him instead. All I really knew about methadone was that it was for junkies to get clean. I assumed that it wouldn't be any fun to somebody just trying to get high like myself.

Well, I ended up overdosing one night on methadone, xanax, and alcohol. Technically, I had a stroke. I was 19 years old.

After that, my left leg was numb for a few months. I went into extensive physical therapy and remained sober throughout this period. Slowly, the feeling started to come back along with a painful case of neuropathy. My foot constantly had the sensation of pins and needles, similar to what one feels when a limb "falls asleep" and then wakes up, but many times worse. And the pain was constant. After trying several medications like neurontin and tramadol, my neurologist put me on hydrocodone.

(I know this is getting long so I'll wrap it up.)

Cut to 5 years later and my foot is fine and completely normal, however I have a wicked addiction to pain pills. I found myself beginning to start snorting heroin. I can't say I ever hit a rock bottom. I just became tired of the cycle of extreme highs and horrific, withdrawal-driven lows. Psychologically, I was becoming severely agoraphobic and anti-social.

Fast forward to now. I've been going to a fantastic clinic and have been on suboxone maintenance treatment. I've relapsed about 3 times. As of today, I've been off of heroin (and all other illicit narcotics) for 2 1/2 weeks. My therapists and I have been adjusting my dose lately and I think I'm at a comfortable place. I attended my first NA meeting last Saturday and plan on checking some other ones that my counselor suggested.

Anyway, I'm glad I found this forum. This seems like a positive place for someone in my position.

Thanks for reading.





Hi Mark and welcome to the forum. It sounds like you are in the right place with your recovery. Suboxone was a miracle drug for me and has stopped all my cravings for opiates. It is also good that you are in therapy and going to Na...anything that can help. I know exactly how you feel...I had a horrible addiction to pain pills mainly hydrocodone because that is all I could get, but occasionally I would get some methadone and I really liked it too. I still have to fight my addiction to the benzos , but I am working hard on it and my husband is dealing it out to me.

Please check your post often for there are many here who know so much more than I do and can give you some good advice. I have been on subutex for about 8 months and 1 year before that with another doctor. I just know I am no where near ready to get off of it...I have a lot of work to do on my addictive behavior first.

Please keep posting and tell us how you are doing. Don't beat yourself up about a relapse as many here have been there, done that....but you are right back into your therapy which is a good thing. You can't really tell us anything we haven't already done ourselves...we all just addicts here trying to help and support each other.

Good luck to you Mark and keep posting!

Judy


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Hi Mark and welcome! It sounds like you are doing the work and have the right attitude. This is a process and the more we learn about ourselves the easier it will become. I'm not saying this will ever be easy, just that with continued work it get's better.

This forum has been an invaluable tool in my recovery and i hope it will be for you as well. We have a great bunch of people here and we will be here to support and help you in any way we can.

Congratulations on entering recovery and I hope your recovery continues to gain strength!


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Hey Mark,

Glad to hear you chose recovery over active addiction. Opiate addiction can be quite a bear. Suboxone is a great med, when used properly, to halt that active addiction and give us a chance to get our heads screwed on straight.

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Hey everyone, thank you for the warm welcome. I'll do my best to look around the site and post often. I appreciate all of the support!


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