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Slept a full night and woke up around 7 (went to bed around 10-11) woke up with a lot of anxiety again....really annoying...hate being so wound up so early, but guess I gotta get used to it...

Ever have one of those weir dreams where background noise becomes part of your dream? That happened. Wife was taking a shower and fr some reason it started raining in my dream lol. Funny how that works...


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If you want to kill some time I hear this place is hiring lol!! (first time ive ever posted youtube video with my phone..hope it works!)

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im glad you got some good sleep last night! If you want to go au naturale for your anxiety i would try the meditation excercise that invisiblemovement mentioned, also ive heard that if you squeeze the area between your thumb and fore finger it can calm you down (i dont really notice too much of a difference when i do it, but its supposed to be some accu-pressure technique. You could also look into other meditation excercises and continue with the valerian root. If your anxiety is really affecting you negativly you can try getting a really low dose of clonidine...its non-addictive (thats a plus) and it should take care of any excess adrenalin. If you need a boost, something natural you could try is an amino acid called l-thyrosine. the bottle i have says l-thyrosine is essential for healthy nervous system function, but if you take it on an empty stomach it also provides a "lift" or energy kinda similar to caffien. Im a coffeeholic i drink it all day..and when i tried l-thyrosine it gave me tons of energy, but it kinda loses its effect after a few days. Its been said that amino acids can help repair te brain faster, when the times comes for me to stop suboxone I think im going to try a broad spectrum amino acid supplement to lessen paws ( if i even get them) Heck, it cant hurt! One more thing i forgot ti mention earlier for anxiety...theres a supplement called sam-e (its some kind of cactus root or something) and its said to be an natural remedy for anxiety. Its kinda pricey..at my local gny it runs about 30 bucks for a 2 week supply. I used to sell weight loss and health supplements over the phone and one of the products was called "arthroleve" it was supposed to be a natural supplement for joint pain and the main ingredient was sam-e. I have never tried it myself, and i read mixed reviews about it on the internet. But if you want its something you can read into. Well thats all, i hope your day goes well!!


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Haha oh my god....I used to work at a kinkos when I was 19 and this brought back so many memories. There was a tofu house next door. EVERY WEEKEND the ambulance would come because someone was choking. One co-worker managed to chop off a finger with the automated ream cutter thing (I got in the next day and it was taped off. I could see the blood where his finger was cut, and the weird thing was there is a plastic guard, and the machine does NOT cut unless it is ALL the way down. We tried ourselves, couldn't get it to work with our hands under the guard. Not the smartest move lol) but the BEST was when the night shift guy fell asleep and a bum stole a copy machine. We all watched the security footage. You could see the dude sleeping at the computers for customers towards the back, some bum walks in, unplugs an old black & white canon copier and straight up wheels it out the door like its his shopping cart. There was a brand new color one closer to the door but he took an old one, why ill never know....good times lol

The anxiety seems to be getting better, I can feel it come on and my skin heating up but it's nowhere near as intense as yesterday....I think this forum has done more for anxiety than any supplement ever could. I also read somewhere that a scant 10% of people DON'T get paws....I can only hope I'm closer to that 10% rather than the other 90%


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Just wanted to update day 18? I think? I forgot what today is , but my last dose was 7/14. So I am sleeping 'normally' I guess. I go to bed around 9-10 but don't actually get to sleep till 11-12, and wake up around 6-7. Is this what productive adults do? That really sucks lol. As much as sleeping was my favorite hobby, being off the subs is worth it. I have pretty LIGHT PAWS, episodes lasting no more than 30 mins and not more than 1-2x a day. It's right when I wake up, and maybe if I try to take a nap or something.

Not sure if I have depression or if I'm just still sad no more opiates forever lol. I don't think I'm actually depressed. (That pop copy skit makes sure I have a smile. Chapelles' smile is infectious)


But in the end, for anyone considering doing the jump, it's not NEARLY as terrible as H, or methadone. It really ends up being as bad as YOU THINK it is. I played a lot of mental games with myself, learned about the process of detoxing and everything, when I understood it, it wasn't as bad


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btw i dunno if anyone shares my taste in music, but THIS song, for some reason, does NOT fail to flat out make me forget about WD or anxiety or anything...for some reason the lyrics i can kinda apply to this situation lol.

you seriously have to listen to it a few times to catch all the subtle notes because they play THAT fast....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jgrCKhxE1s


also, if anyone even reads this thread anymore, if you think you're having a bad day, its STILL not as bad as this squirrel's day...... (sorry mods if this is counts as obscene material or not. definitely puts things into perspective lol)

i didnt embed the pic because...well, you'll see..
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hahaha i wish you had the footage of the bum wheeling out the copier while your co-worker was sleeping. I would love to watch that...the image in my head is pretty funny!

You seemed to have lucked out on sleep. It seems like alot of people take a few months for sleep to normalize...yours seems to be getting there in just a few weeks! Depression is a common symptom of paws...probably one of the worst paws symptoms imo. Do you have a support system and/or recovery plans or therapy to help you stay clean? I really like the idea of keeping a PMA. How do you keep you pma if you dont mind me asking? I like hearing about anything that may help during wd...sorta gathering up a bag o' tricks to remember for when i finally make the jump. Knowledge is power, right? Im sure theres alot to learn from everyones expirences, and i want to be prepared.

Your avatar is pretty funny! I bet thats what Joe Dirts baby would look like if he had one. It reminds me of my kindergarten class picture. My mom was a hairdresser so she always gave me all these different hairstyles and on the day of class pictures she teased my bangs BIG time and left my hair long in the back...it looked like a freakin mullet lol and, because im blond i looked just like joe dirt minus the facial hair in the pic.

I like the song you posted, i used to be pretty good at it on guitar hero. I miss that game. I like most all music but, i especially like music with guitar in it. Do you like STP? They are one of my favorite bands.


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i dont really feel depressed at all, maybe some unmotivation, then again i have run out of things to do early on everyday. the anxiety is the only thing that i can REALLY complain about these past couple days, but i mentioned in another thread i have some social thing for my wifes work at mandalay bay tomorrow (i highly dislike casinos. i dont drink, gamble or club). i think its got more to do with the fact im not as familiar with THOSE people, since i found out today i am riding some coattails into the SEMA show again this year (with my OWN badge nonetheless! :P ) and that has me excited rather than anxious. but thats also months away..

to be honest, music and i just keep repeating it to myself. just like how the guy said it 'PMA: positive mental attitude' (including the accent lol)

here is the documentary its from. it DOES involve drug use so i dont know if it'll be a trigger, but for some reason, out of that WHOLE documentary, what that guy said always stuck with me, i think its because you see how bad things are there, yet when he says it, he's practically glowing. i guess i took that and thought, well HE got clean for a good 3 months, while everyone around him was using, and he seems happy, so why cant that be me?


i LOVE STP...saw them in concert a loooong time ago...i listen to most everything, but if it involves a guitar, im much more partial to it. even more so if it has electric guitars AND a symphony. the two different disciplines coming together always gave me chills.

i think of it as almost crossing time...symphony disciplines from 3-400 YEARS ago coming together with stuff that JUST happened 20-30 years ago, and sounding great...i dont know why i always found it so amazing, but it is to me. songs like november rain...just thinking how long he worked on that song, and how it all came together amazes me...

in fact gonna go listen to interstate love song right now. i've been on a speed/death metal binge. itll be refreshing to my ears to change it up!


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also i dunno where the avatar was from lol. i have it on other forums without the bandana, and the baby just makes me laugh , but this one is like that baby x dude from metal gear solid....i'll try to find the original baby...the face just makes me laugh...they put that poor kids face on all kinds of stuff...all i find hilarious lol

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the Rick baby is cute but..creepy lol and, the top baby looks like Nick Cage.

have you ever heard the acoustic version to intersate love song...omg I LOVE it

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qe7m1VzD2Fk&feature=youtube_gdata_player[/youtube]

and plush too..this is my fav

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gnSxtv5BnZo&feature=youtube_gdata_player[/youtube]

you mentioning a mix of symphonys reminded me of the song glycerine by bush. I like the mix of grungy guitar and violin[list][youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4hi_YnX7tw&feature=youtube_gdata_player[/youtube]

p.s were you trying to post a link to the documentary you were talking about? I dont see it.


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OMGosh, that poor squirrel!!! I bet the birds were laughing their asses off at him!! HAHAHA!!!!

I making a mental note for myself to never try and steal bird food, the consequences are far too dire!!

I've always liked the symphony/guitar sound in songs too. Broken by Seether w/Amy Lee comes to mind.

BeautifulDisaster, I love those STP links!!!

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sorry the documentary is on vice and it tried to put it as a youtube link

http://www.vice.com/rule-britannia/rule ... ull-length

so i think its day 19 or so since my last suboxone dose and i feel fine with the amount of sleep i get (like 6 hours...again is this what other adults do? that sucks lol) so im just dealing with anxiety.

i bought some kava from walgreens ( i am staying away from any known opiate stuff, even though kratom is available here in vegas everywhere, i know its addictive as well so thats a no-go) and just took some so i'll report back to see how that helps with valerian and 5htp


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LOL.. Has anyone seen the pic of Miley Cyrus kissing the man baby? That's what those pics remind me of. Eww.

Congrats on day 19!!


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LOL.. Has anyone seen the pic of Miley Cyrus kissing the man baby? That's what those pics remind me of. Eww.

Congrats on day 19!!


haha yeah...THAT pic kinda creeps me out too for some reason. and then it reminds me of 'safety dance' for some reason...

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZ4JYbllIUQ[/youtube]

this is why i LOVE this forum so much. its ALL positivity here. i went through what i can honestly say was the worst experience of my life (worse than endocarditis+30 day hosp stay and heart surgery) and its all positive vibes. THAT helps a f***ton..and humor...lots and lots of humor..


btw...after the kava...my BODY no longer feels very anxious (hands and feet barely sweating and no sunburn feel) mind is still kinda all over the place, but its surprisingly more effective than the ativan or klonopin. i can honestly feel something alot more than placebo. doesnt completely REMOVE the anxiety but DEFINITELY takes the edge off. i got it at walgreens, kinda expensive at $24 after tax, but heck, its better than benzos (i think) if i keep it moderated. im not going to buy more though...once this bottle is gone thats it


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Congrats on your success thus far. You have such a positive post, that's grate to see. I plan to be following you here soon. Its always nice to see people who have done this with success. I will follow you post and suport you where I can.


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Congrats on your success thus far. You have such a positive post, that's grate to see. I plan to be following you here soon. Its always nice to see people who have done this with success. I will follow you post and suport you where I can.


really just gotta prepare yourself, and stay positive and come to THESE forums to talk about it. just talking about things helped me so immensely.

update: after an hour or so with the kava, anxiety was completely gone, little tired, but no drunk feeling like others have stated. it supposedly acts on the same receptors as benzos but for some reason benzos have NO effect on me (even with booze, and i have no tolerance to BEER) but kava, from walgreens, took the anxiety away completely for a few hours. havent tried it for sleep yet. gonna do that now lol


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So a bit of an update on day 20? Kava helped for a day but the next day I felt weird. Like my body was kind of more messed up with a small headache. It is just weird. YMMV as it supposedly acts on the same receptors benzos do, and I'm pretty immune to them.


I'm gonna bitch and moan again so nobody get scared okay? ALL I have left is anxiety. The function I had at Mandalay bay was unpleasant to me because I don't find being packed in a room with drunks enjoyable (it was free food and booze. No I didn't drink). I believe the kava DID help with that but again YMMV. It's also more physical anxiety rather than mental. It's REALLY annoying, but heck I'll take that over depression I guess. Mind is sharp as a tack, body just needs to catch up.

On another note I TRIED eating better, but i just can't. So maybe that's why it's kinda drawn out. I'm sneezing here and there (couple times a day) but I've had allergies since I was a kid. Drive thrus are just sooo convenient lol.

BUT my conclusion is if youre trying to kick, MENTAL STATE is of utmost importance. Do it for YOU. Make sure all your reasons benefit you and noone else. It's really not very bad. Completely bearable and when I need to talk I forget about symptoms easily enough. I like having my mind back, it's amazing how much subs slow your mind down at high doses. Not racing thoughts kinda stuff, but reaction. I got into a debate about marijuana, and although I HATE weed (it makes me nauseated and vomit) I don't dismiss the possibility it can help others. I, a community college dropout pretty much owned a supposed scientist that had passed the mcat. I take his credentials with salt because if he were really a man of science 1:religion wouldn't have been involved and 2: he would have been open to advances in science.

I'm rambling again, I know, but its not that bad. I guess 5-htp helps with depression and whatnot.
If anyone is having a tough time kicking, don't worry. Shit is over ASAP. SOME lingering effects, as in my case some physical anxiety. Boom. Done.

I'm the biggest whiner I know, so if I can handle it anyone can. It's all in your mind. If you've been sick with a bad flu or food poisoning its kinda like that with RLS. It's really annoying but you WILL live and you WILL get thru it before you know it. PMA. Positive mental attitude. I'm gonna keep posting everyday because its also therapeutic for me but to encourage others. Stopping subs has been awesome. My wife says I look much more alert, and I feel much more alert. Definitely worth the physical anxiety, IMO. And the acute WDs are just a memory now, and I can't really remember much of it cuz of sleep deprivation lol.

All good in the neighborhood. I saw all these horror stories, but I am different. That's what I tell myself anyway. You tell yourself something enough and you'll believe it. And that's really what you need to get thru it with some OTC stuff.


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It is exactly 5:30am Vegas time. This is kind of a long, retarded, useless post so i dont expect anyone to read this or respond.

I haven't slept a wink the past night, and I notice I'm starting to call into doubt my ability to do this. I KNOW my body can take this, and MUCH worse, and i have. ive stayed up to the point ive hallucinated bushes dancing across a road one crazy ass 4th of july weekend when i was younger, but mentally...I'm starting to have my doubts.

I've never been a religious person but I found myself crying ( the first time throughout this detox) and asking a lot of questions. Who I was asking I don't know. They weren't 'why me' questions, but rather can my mind take this? Physical anxiety beating down all day, followed by bad insomnia I think is a recipe for disaster. I've always been the one to find the easiest/fastest way to get results, but there are no easy/fast ways out of this I can think of.

Funny though how tired and worn down I am at this point I can still organize my thought processes and I FEEL I can still think clearly (or maybe I'm so delerious I only THINK I make sense). Psh. At least my bowels are normal now. I guess that's a +1. I guess being on drugs for so longade me rely on opis for a coping mechanism, and without them I just beat myself up mentally. Not to the point it'll lead back down the road I just left, I still don't crave anything, but a solution. One I haven't figured out yet. Any sort of opiate, even when it crosses my mind ( really only kratom) gets dismissed pretty quickly as I don't want to junk the 3 weeks I've gone thru already. Today makes 21 days. Acute is long gone as I have MILD PAWS. So I guess I should count my blessings. I just enjoyed sleep too much for too long while on subs.

I guess the REAL issue I can see is fear. Fear that the physical anxiety and insomnia that seems to be random will break me. I still at this point don't find going back on maintenance meds appealing, or even see them as an option, although it HAS crossed my mind; 'oh what if I go on a low dose like .5mg? Doc would totally be okay with it too' but then I feel like I'd just have thrown out these past 3 weeks.

I haven't watched the sun rise since like ever....I don't see how people get inspired by it (lol not to knock anyone or anything) I'm generally pretty upbeat during the day, even though the physical anxiety gives me shortness of breath sometimes, my wife thinks I'm mad at something when I take a deep breath. I'm more frustrated and I guess scared than anything. Frustrated I just wasted 7 hours staring at stuff I've seen all day like the ceiling and clock, and scared because I don't know how much my mind can really handle. I know my body has been thru the ringer a couple times and it bounces back like nothing happened, but I don't think I've ever put my MIND thru the ringer like this. When I had endocarditis from IV H use I left early against doctors orders to go to my dads funeral. There was no way I would miss that. I figured if it gets bad I could go to a hospital in CA. Didn't finish treatment and was too weak to even walk the jetway onto the plane but less than a month later I was back to shenanigans and whatnot.

The problem I see is most all of that is overcoming physical adversity. Mental, on the other had scares me. I guess I trust my body but not my mind.

Fuck it. This post is too long and contains nothing but BS. Some dethklok to put me in a better mood. Not much else to do at what is now 6am I guess. Still, it suuure as hell beats having to cop first thing waking up, waiting for homie to wake up/deliver, then fix. It's amazing what we put ourselves through to have that little bit of pleasure KNOWING the pain it'll cause later....I guess at one point we think those rain checks won't get cashed, but they always do...


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Hey, you're doing great! No relapses, and no physical stuff other than anxiety -- hallelujah! Don't feel bad or worry about the anxiety thing. It WILL go away! And when it does, it's gone for good. It's not some scar that you will have the rest of your life. Give it a full month of no opiates, and it should be gone. Maybe it will pop up in a teeny tiny drop for a day here or there, but you will know what to do, and you will get through that day, and you will be one step stronger. And you know what? I have been trying to taper/quit all summer, and every now and then I get the shortness of breath anxiety feeling. I got it 3 nights in a row this week, because this was supposed to be the week I jump, and I'm not, and it's making me feel anxious because I know I have to do it. My point is, most of it is probably physical for you, but some of it could be mental. Which is perfectly understandable. In the back of your head, you are wondering "What's going to happen next? How will I deal with life now that I'm not on opiates? Will I feel different?" and you are anxious for it to be over. Also, like you said, if you ever had any problem you could always lean on opiates. I know I did a lot. If I had a lot of work to do, I did opiates. If I was bored, I did opiates. If I had a headache or stomach ache, I did opiates. If I was depressed, I did opiates. Now you don't have that cushioning, so maybe that's why you get a little anxious?

Well, I'm not sure if that's what it is, but I just wanted to put that idea out there so that you know that it's perfectly normal. I want to share a short story with you. A friend of mine was on OC 80's, several a day, for years. It wasn't heroin, but still, a few 80s a days is still a pretty good-sized habit. He made a big decision in his life to leave the midwest to Hawaii with nothing but a small suitcase of clothes. No money, nothing. All he knew was 1 friend who said he could stay at his place until he found his own place. Also, he did have a job lined up, and it was rough manual labor that he was to start the very next day. He took his last OC on the plane there. When he got there, he was so overcome by the beauty, he never had withdrawals. None. Ever. He was so worried about the next day, especially because it was manual labor. He would wake up every morning thinking "OK, today I will probably wake up sick". He waited and waited, but it never came. He was astounded. He went through withdrawals every month of his life when his script would run out. He knew you got them no matter what. But his mind was so busy trying to take in the scenery, the sights, the smells of the ocean, the nice people, everything, that he never had withdrawals. He doesn't know why still to this day, but I think it's because his brain was too busy processing everything, things it had never seen before. Strange plants, animals, smells, people, everything. Absolutely everything was different, and he was focussed on his surroundings. When we are in our own homes and environments, we aren't busy trying to make sense of our surroundings. We know that if we look left in the bedroom, we will see purple wallpaper and a yellow lamp. So, our thoughts internatlize, and we just start thinking about things inside ourselves instead of outside ourselves. Then, we are processings new things on our bodies instead of new things in our environment. When your body is going through changes as days without opiates, it tries to make new sense of the things going on inside your body. Maybe that's why it's difficult to get over the anxiety. I don't know for sure, this is just a small hunch, but maybe you could try doing something new, or going someplace you've never seen before, to make your brain think about something else.

I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do, it's just an idea. When I feel somewhat like the beginnings of a panic attack, I always have to surround myself with familiar things. I feel like if I don't, things look strange, unfamiliar, and almost scary. So I'm not sure if it would be a good idea to do something new, but it is something you could try.

Good look on everything, and keep up your strenght. You don't need opiates anymore. You were made to not depend on them, and your body knows how to get back to normal. You are more than halfway there. Just hang in a couple more days, and you will be back to calm shortly.


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im getting on a plane to hawaii asap...lok j/k (i only wish i could)

good post invisiblemovement, i really like your friends story!!

ive read other people say how a change in latitude produces a change in attitude, makes perfect sense to me

and ya know i do remember kinda early on in my active addiction...i was going on a 10 day rd trip to North Carolina. The car ride there sucked big time...but it was 3 adults and 2 kids cramed into a volkswagon jetta, but when i got there i didnt really have much in the way of wds. I never really thought too much about that until I heard other people speak of it.


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' He went through withdrawals every month of his life when his script would run out. '

THAT IS/WAS EXACTLY ME! Haha wow...I mean I didn't think I was the only one, but I generally felt nobody did it as often as I did ( EVERY.SINGLE. TIME.)

That's another reason I wanted to stop, I hated goin through light WD because I ALWAYS ran out early.

I wish we ha Hawaii scenery out here. All I can see is dirt and hobos :p but they're actually really nice guys, and I feel badly for them. The MAIN thing they want isn't money. Or food. They just want to be recognized and treated like a fellow human. That's really it. Makes me sad to think what people say for them to want that over money or food.


Again I really appreciate the encouraging words. I didn't mean to sound so negative, and anyone who WILL quit, again it's not that bad, I just whine a lot. I'm 'venting' lol. Today is 3 weeks. I have NEVER gotten this far without a relapse or maint meds before, and it is all thanks to you guys and gals here. I hope one day I can meet you and take you out to dinner. It is the absolute LEAST I could ever do.

Damn reading back about my morning post now and I am surprised how much my mood actually swings. Sure I get not as happy, but I wouldn't even think to call it depression. If I can just get over the PHYSICAL anxiety feeling I'll be good...I think that's causing the insomnia cuz I was sleeping okay for a couple/few days...


Again, all of you are beyond awesome and I can start a new chapter in life. And I can honestly say I owe it to you. Thank you.

(Ill probably keep posting just to moan a but more cuz I'm good at that, and to document it for people the best I can, to show its really NOT a month long horror story every single time :p )


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