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PostPosted: Mon Jan 11, 2016 5:29 am 
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This started off as just a therapeutic writing exercise. I was listing reasons why, after a hellish withdrawal, I would never take pain meds again. I came up with this:

"Reasons Why Not"

Nausea, panic, skin crawl, burning
no sleep, cravings, guilt, remorse.

Cold sweats, white knuckles, saying "I'm an addict".
Telling my friends. Shit, telling my family.

The way they look at me.

Lying to my kids.
2 year old crying tears of joy. Pangs of remorse, undeserving.
Loved unconditionally, but wondering why.

Need for sleep, no food, can't eat.
Stomach cramping, tingling feet.

Conspiracy, cynicism, paranoia.
Doubting the system, doubting myself.

Shady clinics, crooked quacks, insurance fraud, over medication. Creating addicts just for profit, then proclaiming them "diseased"? Ignore your roots of poison pawned!

Driven addiction, need more meds. Laser focus, I need more meds.

Depressed, destruction, desperation, all a product of Big Pharma.

You've become what they've always wanted, until you became what they always wanted. Now you're an addict, a stigma, and weak. Lost, alone, disconnected, isolation. Begging. Praying. Searching for a fix.

: The Divine Comic :
: sadistic in his irony :
: whispers from :
: a place in your head :
Funny, how you blame them for making you want it.
When I think it's been you that you've never wanted.


~SubliminalBroadcast 8)


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PostPosted: Mon Jan 11, 2016 11:22 pm 
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I appreciate your poem! Good stuff!

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PostPosted: Mon Jan 11, 2016 11:35 pm 
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Thank you :)

And I never let people read my stuff. Lol. I love the anonymity.I freelance articles and other things and the whole world reads those.... but the poems, nope!


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