I thinking about writing a new thread but thought i would just finish this one off.
It has been a year since I've been off suboxone. One muck up - after a family argument I asked my doc for serapax - over used them and just felt really anxious after - other than that I've not used. And try not to let myself deceive myself into thinking that I'm able to use.
One of the things I've discovered that is very scary (after reading Russell Brandt's recovery book) is that I'm always a fleeting thought away from using. And there have been thoughts, but they go away eventually.
Exercise is great for keeping a clear head.
I've disconnected from old associates.
It's been a rough year - this isn't easy and it's a disease. I'm on the right anti-depressant and see my doc and psych regularly.
Things get better with time. Relationships heal if they are supposed to. And asking for help is ok.
Inbox me if you feel like you need help or if you're just tapering off and would like to chat.