It is currently Fri Aug 18, 2017 7:03 am



All times are UTC - 5 hours [ DST ]


Our Sponsors





Post new topic Reply to topic  [ 22 posts ]  Go to page 1, 2  Next
Author Message
PostPosted: Sun Jan 03, 2010 10:52 pm 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
Hi all!

I just wanted to post that I have not been on the forums in a couple of months. My last posts were regarding coming off of Suboxone and explaining that I was going to be starting a new job soon. Well, I started the new job, things have been going well!

I was not able to discontinue using Suboxone but as I said, things are going pretty well. I still have problems waking up sometimes, only on the weekends though. I believe that simply not having anything to do makes me stay in bed. I still believe that Suboxone causes this as I was not like this before opiates but who knows?

As long as I can still get to work on time and perform my duties well I will stay in Suboxone. Perhaps once I've built up sufficient vacation time I may try to discontinue using Suboxone yet again. When (if) that day comes you will all know it as I will post about what's going on and ask for advice.

I'm sure a lot has changed on the forums since my last visit and I hope that people are having success on Suboxone.

I look forward to getting involved with the forums again!

Take care all!

Sincerely,

PAINguin

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Sun Jan 03, 2010 11:12 pm 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Mon Apr 27, 2009 12:47 am
Posts: 1496
Hey Painguin, welcome back! I'm glad to hear that you're doing well & look forward to seeing you around.

_________________
You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.

-Jack Kornfield


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject: Thanks!
PostPosted: Sun Jan 03, 2010 11:46 pm 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
Thanks Diary of a Quitter! It's good to be back and I look forward to hearing from you in the forum as well!

Thanks again!

PAINguin

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
Our Sponsors
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 1:11 am 
Offline
6 Months or More
6 Months or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Nov 20, 2009 4:31 pm
Posts: 226
Location: Pennsylvania
Nice to meet you. I have read you posts before. Sounds like you are doing pretty good! Good for you!!! Good luck and take care

_________________
"The past is finished. There is nothing to be gained by going over it. Whatever it gave us in the experiences it brought us was something we had to know."----Rebecca Beard

"Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it." ---Salvador Dali


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 2:03 pm 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member

Joined: Tue Nov 24, 2009 7:36 pm
Posts: 879
Location: Wisconsin
I love your photo icon! Very cool.

I just wanted to agree with you about sleeping. I too have found that I either need or am just taking more sleep time than usual. It is not out of the ordinary for me to get 10 or even 12 hours of sleep. Part of this could very well be that I lost my job as part of my drug use and have not yet gone back to work. Just to add that I'm also not in any hurry as I have worked my butt off for the past 20+ years doing 60+ hours a week for much of it and have decided I am going to take some time off and fortunately have the financial capacity to do it. In any event, the fact that I don't have to get up has me sleeping a lot more. I will add, that just like you, when I do have some place to be, I am always there. I never sleep through anything. I am certain that all of this is much better than tossing and turning all night - of that I have no doubt. It still is odd how much I can now sleep at one time.


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 5:24 pm 
Just wanted to say welcome back to PAINguin! I'm glad things are going well for you. Try not to worry yourself too much about not being off Suboxone yet. Sounds like things are going pretty good, so just try and be grateful and proud of what you've been able to accomplish!
Glad you are back!


Top
  
 
 Post subject: Thanks guys!
PostPosted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 12:35 am 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
First off, thank you all for welcoming me back. I have found that speaking with users on the forum and posting in the threads really helps. I can vent to you guys about this stuff and you all understand. Most people have no idea what the addict deals with. This forum is great and I'm glad to be back.

Secondly, Dohn, PM me when you get a chance, I want to talk to you about sleeping issues and how ours may be similar/different.

Thanks again all!

Sincerely,

PAINguin

p.s. The avater is great isn't it? :D

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject: Back, yet again... Lol!
PostPosted: Fri Jun 24, 2011 1:25 am 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
Hi all,

I'm back yet again to the forums. I was curious if Diary of a Quitter was still here? Since I started posting in these forums so much has happened. I'll explain later... But basically I am still on Suboxone, I still sleep through my work clock, door bells, people knocking on doors, etc. I've been doing pretty well aside from that but I must figure out why I cannot wake up. I mean, it's ridiculous that a grown man cannot even wake up to two alrm clocks. It's really starting to bring me down, my doctor shrugs it off as a discipline problem but I never had these issues before Suboxone so I know that its the cause.

I need help, I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I was browsing Google for topics regarding Suboxone and deep sleeping and I ran across my old posts here. Lol! So that's why I'm back... I hope everyone here is doing well and hope to become involved, at least to some extent, in the forums again.

Looking forward to catching up with some of you.

Regards,

PAinguIN

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Fri Jun 24, 2011 7:49 am 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Wed Apr 29, 2009 12:55 pm
Posts: 4933
Location: Leesburg, FL
What dose are you on? Are you sleepy the rest of the day, too? I'm just thinking maybe your dose is too high. Usually somnolence is associated with too high a dose of sub.

_________________
-As I have grown older, I've learned that pleasing everyone is impossible, but pissing everyone off is a piece of cake.

-I'm only responsible for what I say, not for what you understand.


Top
 Profile  
 
   
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Fri Jun 24, 2011 3:20 pm 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Mon Apr 27, 2009 12:47 am
Posts: 1496
Hey there! I'm still here!

Sorry to hear that you are still having problems with the sleeping thing. My roommate had a similar issue with sleeping through the alarm clock and it turned out that he had really bad sleep apnea. He got a CPAP machine that keeps his airway open while he sleeps and he's like a new person. Has your doctor sent you for a sleep study? He really should.

Have you been able to reduce your dose at all? I hope this time you'll be able to find answers. Welcome back!

_________________
You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.

-Jack Kornfield


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 6:55 pm 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
hatmaker510 wrote:
What dose are you on? Are you sleepy the rest of the day, too? I'm just thinking maybe your dose is too high. Usually somnolence is associated with too high a dose of sub.


hatmaker510,

Thank you and everyone else for their swift responses. Honestly, sometimes I will wake up in the morning and be full of energy and ready to get going and other times I will be extremely tired for the rest of the day. So tired in fact that it is hard to even stay awake once I have awoken. And often times I find myself, when I am in this "tired" stage, falling asleep while I'm doing things and finding it very hard to keep my eyes open when I'm driving. But that's only some of the time.

An example would be yesterday. I stayed out late as I went to a party at a friends house. I came home and went to bed probably at around 3:30am - 4:30am. I woke up at around 10:00am and turned the tv on while I prepared for the rest of the day. I sat down and then lied down on the couch and before I knew it I was waking up at 7:30pm. Not hearing my phone go off, not hearing my roommate up and moving around... Just out cold...

The dose I'm taking has been miniscule up until several months ago. I have been on "crumbs" for 2 years or so now, basically breaking up the 8mg tablets into halves, then breaking that into half and then breaking that piece into half. But again, for the last few months I have been taking about 2-4mg per day.

I will take a dose as soon as I wake up and then I will take another dose a few hours later and then possibly another if I feel bad. So I went from about 1-2mg/day to 2-4mg/day within a few months. Now I am prescribed Klonopin as well and we all know that mixing opiates and benzos is generally a bad idea. However, my doc has had me on this mixture for years now. The first times I remember these problems occurring was when I began to abuse OxyContin several years ago. Since then things have never been the same.

I've lost 3 INCREDIBLE jobs over the past 4 years because I can't wake up. I broke my leg last Summer, that's a whole different story, but I lost the job I had at that time because they wouldn't hold my position open for me until I obtained a work release from the doctor. SC is an at will state, there was nothing I could do about it.

Tomorrow, I have an interview for another amazing job and if I end up losing this job because of this sleeping issues then I will probably just give up. I mean what's the point of trying if you already know that you are going to fail? At first I thought that I could change my sleeping schedule around and it would be no problem, but nothing has changed and sometimes I can go to sleep at 8:00pm and wake up at 10:00pm the next night! That's an extreme example but you get the picture...

God, I have been praying, wishing, hoping.... I don't know what I'll do if I can't hold this job. This isn't like me, I was always the first guy at the office or on the site and the last one to leave. Sometimes I wonder if Suboxone is hindering me more than it is helping? Would I be better to be only Opiates again? I mean real Opiates such as OxyCodone?

I had a FULL range of blood tests ran about 2 months ago, everything was fine. There is nothing wrong with me physically, at least not at that level.

Any insight into this problem would be very much appreciated. My life, my future is literally on the line here.

"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference."

Yours Truly,

"Ever-so-Desperate"
(PAinguIN)

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:54 pm 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Wed Apr 29, 2009 12:55 pm
Posts: 4933
Location: Leesburg, FL
Diary's suggestion to be checked out for sleep apnea is a good one. What you describe sounds very much like how my husband was before he was diagnosed and got the special equipment to use at night. He was dozing off all the time - while at work, driving, etc. Sleep apnea causes one to wake continually during the night so that no real sleep is obtained. I'd see my doctor if I were you. I can tell how frustrated you are. At the very least you should rule out any physical cause.

_________________
-As I have grown older, I've learned that pleasing everyone is impossible, but pissing everyone off is a piece of cake.

-I'm only responsible for what I say, not for what you understand.


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 9:11 pm 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
hatmaker510 wrote:
Diary's suggestion to be checked out for sleep apnea is a good one. What you describe sounds very much like how my husband was before he was diagnosed and got the special equipment to use at night. He was dozing off all the time - while at work, driving, etc. Sleep apnea causes one to wake continually during the night so that no real sleep is obtained. I'd see my doctor if I were you. I can tell how frustrated you are. At the very least you should rule out any physical cause.


Yes, Diary has always provided me with good advice. I wish I would have been a bit more involved over the past couple of years. Breaking my leg last year really threw me for a loop. You could imagine what all was involved. It was the most agonizing pain I have ever felt in my life, that was before the surgery.

Anyway, I really don't know what I'm going to do. All that I know is that if/when I get this job tomorrow I have to make it until I begin to receive medical coverage and maybe then I can go see a sleep specialist. My sister is a Certified Sleep Tech and works for a very gifted doctor. His specialty, of course, is to treat patients with sleeping disorders of all types. I know that I could go there for a sleep study but it just comes down to the money. When I broke my leg last year my company told me that I would be eligible for re-hire and they also told me that I only had 7 days of active health coverage. This was August 12th, 2010... I was actually doing pretty well there, waking up early at least 90% of the time and only late a small number of times for the year that I was there.

Again, moving on, until I have this sleep study done I guess I'm just stuck.

So what exactly was your husband having problems with? He had sleep apnea right? So due to being woken up several times every night he would become so exhausted that he would sleep through alarm clocks and the like? I can see that happening. I hope Sleep Apnea is not a the cause honestly, but I would love to be able to not have to worry rather or not my alarm clock was going to wake me up or not...

It's soooo freaking frustrating...

I've got to go, I've got to try and go to sleep soon so I can get up for this interview tomorrow.

I hope you all have a good night and I will try to get back on before I go to bed.

Thanks again for all of the support and advice!!!!

Regards,

PAinguIN

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
   
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 9:33 pm 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Sat Jan 01, 2011 12:59 pm
Posts: 1039
Hi painguin, I feel your pain. Oversleeping has been a huge problem for me on Sub. School ended last week and with it my job. My kids are old enough to get up, get their own breakfast, etc. So I've been sleeping like crazy. The other night I went to sleep about midnight and woke up at 11:30am. I felt like shit about myself, and what's worse I started to doze off again between 7&8 that evening.
I find that if I'm forced to get up and stay up I'm OK. When I was working I had to get up at 6am and I FORCED myself to. Can you get a super loud alarm, maybe one with lights? Or would your roommate be willing to help? Also, try to get to bed early.

I always thought I was on too high of a dose, but now I'm on 6mg and its the same. If you are confident you don't have an underlying medical condition, then it really comes down to forcing yourself to do it if you really want the job. I know how hard it is. But I think it does wonders for the self esteem to get up and get out and work.
Good luck,
Lilly


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 11:15 pm 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
Lillyval wrote:
Hi painguin, I feel your pain. Oversleeping has been a huge problem for me on Sub. School ended last week and with it my job. My kids are old enough to get up, get their own breakfast, etc. So I've been sleeping like crazy. The other night I went to sleep about midnight and woke up at 11:30am. I felt like shit about myself, and what's worse I started to doze off again between 7&8 that evening.
I find that if I'm forced to get up and stay up I'm OK. When I was working I had to get up at 6am and I FORCED myself to. Can you get a super loud alarm, maybe one with lights? Or would your roommate be willing to help? Also, try to get to bed early.

I always thought I was on too high of a dose, but now I'm on 6mg and its the same. If you are confident you don't have an underlying medical condition, then it really comes down to forcing yourself to do it if you really want the job. I know how hard it is. But I think it does wonders for the self esteem to get up and get out and work.
Good luck,
Lilly


Lilly,

Just as you feel my pain I feel yours. To be totally honest and fair I haven't been living life on a completely normal schedule. All of this started with my drug use. I would stay up for days at a time or at best go to sleep after the sun had risen. I did this over and over again for years. Probably 4 solid years of drug using non-sense and then sporadic use here and there.

Well, drugs aren't my problem any longer, at least not street drugs anyway. My Sub, Klonopin and Adderall prescriptions are the enemy now. Maybe it's just all in my head, I don't know...

But what I was getting at was that since I've been drug free, which has been some time now, I have had sleeping problems. I have endured numerous traumatic events over the past couple of years as well and also years before my hardcore drug use.

It all started in June 2001, I just received my first DUI in April (I was 20 years old about to turn 21 in July) because the cops found my prescription Xanax in my car while I was sleeping in it in my friends driveway. So in June I was following some friends to their house to eat some rolls (Ecstasy) and my friend who's name was Amber was riding with me. We hadn't seen each other in months and it was all fun and games for us all that night up until around 11:00pm. To make a long story short I attempted to pass my friends whom were racing on this straight-a-way moments earlier and one of them had stopped to turn around at the bottom of a hill. I hit him as he was turning going 90+ mph and my car rolled off into the ravine off of the left side of the road. All I can remember is blackness until the car stopped rolling.

By the time I came to everyone whom I was following was down at my car checking on us. Aside from the guy I hit of course, he was hurt badly but survived. We are still friends to this day. But the girl who was riding with me died instantly, a broken neck, I was 20 years old and she had just turned 18 and literally had just graduated from High School.

It was a freak accident, just like breaking my leg last Summer was. But these things happen I guess. The first person to come visit me was my friend Jordan. (After the wreck and after I was released from the hospital days later). In 2005 he was killed in a freak accident car crash too. Then, in October 2007, my best friend overdosed and never woke back up. This was the day after he started going to a Methadone clinic to "get better". He ended up taking his weekend doses together along with some blue xanax's and 2 or 3 Roxi 30mg's and that was it. I spoke to him the day before while I was in the car with my girlfriend at the time driving to the city to get a hotel room and check out some haunted houses and what not.

I had to go to Boston that very next week for work and I couldn't get out of it because it was DoD stuff and was unable to be there for the family gathering. Although I went later it still wasn't the same.

The girlfriend I was dating at the time, the one who was driving us to the city for the weekend committed suicide last April. She hanged herself and left no note. She was a college graduate, an accomplished High School teacher and most importantly, the love of my life...so I thought. We broke up about a year and a half before this happened. It devastated me, that may be weird but it did and it still lingers. Last week I was having such a wonderful dream where we were together just like it used to be, she was alive, it was like I knew what had happened but she did not mention it and basically the suicide did not play a role in the dream. It was great, I remember feeling so calm and at ease, so happy and serene...

Then, I woke up, and once I realized that it was a dream and she wasn't there I immediately began to cry. A 30 year old man waking up with tears pouring down his face. Some people may laugh, some will understand, the others can think whatever, but I loved that girl more than anything in this world. She meant more to me than all of the girls I've ever dated combined and I meant the same to her. In the end I had to move for my work and she had to stay...I wish I would have stayed.

Anyway, this is a forum for drug user's and for us to share our stories. I have gone into so much detail in this post. Why? Perhaps to shed some light on why I've done the things I've done in life. To show that maybe someone who hasn't been to Afghanistan or Iraq may possibly have PTSD.

The worst things to happen in the last 10 years of my life essentially. Does any of it relate to my sleeping problems? Maybe. Does any of it have anything to do with the topic in this thread? No. (Not directly anyway)

I guess I just need an outlet to vent... Somewhere I can let it all out and not be judged and not have to listen to criticism or the empty and careless responses of the people who claim to be my friends. At least in here I know where I stand.

And let me assure you, I'm not a "nutcase", Lol! It's just I'm totally stressing about my sleeping problems and am looking anywhere for answers to what is causing it or why this is happening to me after being so successful in my life. Many of you may not read this entire post and that's fine, but I feel better already just because I typed it.

Now, to jump waaaaay back to the beginning of my story when I said, "To be totally honest and fair." What I was getting at was that I haven't been going to bed at a descent time for years. I'm not the type of person who goes to work, gets off at 5 (or whatever) comes home, sits around until 8 or 9 just to go to bed and start it all over again. I feel like I'm wasting my time by doing that. But, when I was younger, before all of the sleeping problems, I did go to bed early and even if I didn't go to bed early I could and would still get up if my alarm went off or if I needed to. Now, if I'm up past midnight or so you can forget about me waking up to an alarm, doorbell, firetruck, smoke alarm, car horn, cell phone, etc.

The only thing that I can think of that can sedate a man in such a way would be hardcore opiates such as Morphine and the like. And what do you know, I just so happen to take one of the strongest opiates in the world. Suboxone...

I'm not saying all of this to make it seem like my life has been any worse than any other persons, I know that others have endured much more heartache and disappointment than I will ever know. I'm just trying to share a small portion of my story in hopes that someone will read it and be able to make some sense out of what's going on in my life today. Why I can't sleep, why I've been up all night and am absolutely freaking out about an interview that would ordinarily have me excited. Instead I'm anxious, I'm scared that I will be given an opportunity and that I will blow it because I sleep through my alarm clock's (plural).

I came to my parent's house tonight so that I know I will be awoken no matter what. In the end, family is all you can rely on and the only ones who really care about you... Funny, it's the one's who love us the most that we hurt so badly.

And Lilly, I did not mean to run off on a tangent like that, but damn... What the hell am I going to do? Is this all a matter of discipline? Do I need to just go to bed at the same time every single night? I don't know if I can do that. I don't know if I will ever be able to do that....

Well, I guess I better end this now and go to sleep. I have a big day ahead of me tomorrow.

To anyone who reads this and truly understands where I'm coming from, Thank you...

And thank you all anyway for being here for people like me. You all have no idea how much it means to have people to tell ANYTHING to and receive genuine feedback instead of some moron talking junk. Not that that has happened but if I posted this on Yahoo! answers or something I would get railed! LOL!

Anyway, good night all, wish me luck tomorrow and god bless!!!

Sincerely and Respectfully,

PAinguIN

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Tue Jun 28, 2011 4:59 am 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Thu Jul 15, 2010 5:08 am
Posts: 1503
PAINguin1 wrote:
I would stay up for days at a time or at best go to sleep after the sun had risen. I did this over and over again for years. Probably 4 solid years of drug using non-sense and then sporadic use here and there.


This reminded me of my years of abusing stimulants. Of trying to sleep when the sun was coming up, when the birds were chirping outside my window, and I just wanted to get a shotgun . . .

Anyway. Welcome back PAINguin. I haven't seen many of your posts, so it will be good to see your input.

But I may miss out though. I'm seriously thinking of taking a few months hiatus from this forum. I've realised that lately I use this place to procrastinate a lot, usually from my studies, and my music projects. Hence I've been spending wayyy too much time here. Don't fall into my trap!


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Tue Jun 28, 2011 7:37 pm 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Sat Jan 01, 2011 12:59 pm
Posts: 1039
Wow, painguin, that is really harsh. You said that you don't have any health issues, but I would be willing to bet that the emotional trauma you have been through is either contributing to or causing your sleep issues. Just as if it were a medical problem, it will have to be dealt with at some point. You didn't say if you were ever treated for PTSD, but I know it's a condition that has a lot of new research and treatment methods, due to the casualties of war.
You mentioned the term "freak accident" a couple of times, and it sounds like you may be using that term to sort of distance yourself from the pain. What you described were gut wrenching, heartbreaking, life altering traumas. And if there is anything worth a good cry over it's losing a loved one in such a violent and senseless manner.
I know it almost sounds cliche in recovery forums to tell people to get some counseling - but I really, really think you should. If you can't face recounting that whole history, then print out that post and just let the therapist read it. And by all means keep posting. I know that typing things out can really put them in perspective.
I commend you for being in recovery. I know a lot of us used to numb the pain, and that's a lot of pain. I know this forum will support you in any way that we can.
By the way, good thinking having your parents wake you up for the job. Having someone wake me up is the only foolproof way for me, too. I really hope you get it.
Take care,
Lilly


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Wed Jun 29, 2011 7:08 am 
Offline
Long Time Member
Long Time Member
User avatar

Joined: Wed Apr 29, 2009 12:55 pm
Posts: 4933
Location: Leesburg, FL
I fully agree with Lilly - chances are the severe PTSD that you're suffering from is most likely related to your sleep issues. I, too, have really bad PTSD and have been treated for it for many years now through individual therapy. In fact my therapist actually specializes in treating trauma patients. That's been a huge help to me. I would encourage you to get into therapy of some kind in an effort to start dealing with these traumas. If not, it's my opinion that these traumas you've suffered will just continue to manifest themselves in different and even possibly more serious ways. You've been through so very much and now is the time (in my opinion) for you to start addressing these events. Do it for yourself. Good luck to you. You can get through this!

_________________
-As I have grown older, I've learned that pleasing everyone is impossible, but pissing everyone off is a piece of cake.

-I'm only responsible for what I say, not for what you understand.


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Sun Jul 03, 2011 7:40 am 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
To Tearjerker, Lily and HatMaker,

Thank you guys so much for your honest opinions. I do appreciate and respect what you are all telling me and I believe I may do just that. Seek some counseling...

To Terjerker, I'm glad you never picked up that shotgun otherwise you wouldn't be here on the forums with us. If the forums are helping you then you should not stop posting and reading from them. But if they are hindering you then maybe you should take a break. Your personal life means more than anything, that's why I'm here seeking help for my personal life. We all are in some ways I guess. But glad to hear your feedback and happy to be back on the forums, yes, I am indeed!

Lily, when you posted this, "You mentioned the term "freak accident" a couple of times, and it sounds like you may be using that term to sort of distance yourself from the pain. What you described were gut wrenching, heartbreaking, life altering traumas." It really made me think.

It seems like everything bad that happens in my life is a "freak accident". Perhaps it is a way of distancing myself from the pain. I guess only a therapist would be able to tell me for sure but your comment really made me think. You know, it's often in the smallest details do we find the clues and/or hard evidence to diagnose someone or come to terms with something. And again, you are right... Those events were gut wrenching, heartbreaking and life altering traumas. I don't think it could have been said any better.

I guess I'm used to making problems seem smaller than they really are. Why? Perhaps to make it possible for me to deal with the problem. I don't really know... What I do know is that I started this conversation with problems I've been having waking up and now, through other information I have released, am being advised to seek therapy and counseling as these past events may be the cause of my sleeping problems by themselves or along side the medications I take.

It's nice to get some real answers and unbiased opinions from people whom have lived similar lives such as I.

Oh, and regarding the job, the interview went great! I am to be given an assignment to complete, to be more exact it will be a scenario to where I will have to write a short program (or long program) typically called a script to resolve or circumvent the issue(s). The man who will be hiring me, assuming I will get the job, lost his Father this past week so he must be going through a lot. I expect to receive the assignment tomorrow and should have no problem completing it at all...I hope. Lol!

I'm going to talk to my addiction specialist whom is also my primary care physician and share with him the post that I typed last Sunday. He knows several Psychiatrists and Psychologists and may be able to refer me to one...

I'm sorry for not responding sooner guys. But again thank you for your feedback, all of you!

Sincerely,

PAinguIN

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
 Post subject:
PostPosted: Sun Jul 03, 2011 7:46 am 
Offline
One Month or More
One Month or More
User avatar

Joined: Fri Oct 30, 2009 10:04 pm
Posts: 36
Location: Charleston, SC
hatmaker510 wrote:
I fully agree with Lilly - chances are the severe PTSD that you're suffering from is most likely related to your sleep issues. I, too, have really bad PTSD and have been treated for it for many years now through individual therapy. In fact my therapist actually specializes in treating trauma patients. That's been a huge help to me. I would encourage you to get into therapy of some kind in an effort to start dealing with these traumas. If not, it's my opinion that these traumas you've suffered will just continue to manifest themselves in different and even possibly more serious ways. You've been through so very much and now is the time (in my opinion) for you to start addressing these events. Do it for yourself. Good luck to you. You can get through this!


Hatmaker,

If you don't mind me asking, has your therapy included prescription meds as well or mostly talking about past events? If/when I do get to see a therapist I would hope to avoid other drugs but if it is necessary for me to live a normal life then I am all for it! You do not have to go in to detail about this if you do not wish to, but I thought I would ask.

Thanks!

PAinguIN

_________________
"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."

-Edmund Burke
1729-1797


Top
 Profile  
 
Display posts from previous:  Sort by  
Post new topic Reply to topic  [ 22 posts ]  Go to page 1, 2  Next

All times are UTC - 5 hours [ DST ]


Who is online

Users browsing this forum: No registered users and 2 guests


You cannot post new topics in this forum
You cannot reply to topics in this forum
You cannot edit your posts in this forum
You cannot delete your posts in this forum
You cannot post attachments in this forum

Search for:
Jump to:  
Our Sponsors
Suboxone Forum latest topics RSS feed Subscribe to the entire forum
 

 

 
Fond Du Lac Psychiatry
Dr. Jeffrey Junig, M.D., Ph.D.

  • Board Certified Psychiatrist
  • Asst Clinical Professor, Medical College of Wisconsin

Powered by phpBB® Forum Software © phpBB Group